Fixing Me ~ Markiplier x Reader

Relaxed

**watching Glam & Gore right now** (one only beauty gorus i watch.)

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"Well, before you took off..." he begins and i look down "I would of said that-"
He stops and i feel his fingers grab my chin softly, pulling it up so i am looking at him.
"I forgive you, even though you shouldn't be sorry. And of course it wasn't a dare, well, it was but-"
"Jack explained." I chuckle.
He nods before continuing "Okay, well, i have missed you like crazy. And i am sorry, don't say i shouldn't be, cause i am." He laughs and i roll my eyes "And... if you want, we could maybe hang out again... and start as f-friends..."
I smile at him, deciding i might as well "Screw it." Then, i kiss him.
We sit there for a second before he kisses me back, it starts to get deeper until his phone rings,he ignores it, making me giggle before pulling away.
"Answer it babe." I breathe out, smiling.
"Arrrgh! Fine!" He grabs it out, holding my hand with his other "ello?"
"Oh, heyy. Where you at Mark?" I hear Jacks voice, then i hear someone yell in the background.
B/n...
"Jackkkk! Did you call Mark?"
I gulp, feeling some tears well up but i push them away.
"Just, with someone." He mutters, most people would find this rude but i know he is protecting me from getting bombarded by questions.
"Yeah, bet it is..." he mutters someone, that being me "but okay."
"Yeah, uh, be home soon." He says and hangs up "Sorry bab-"
He stops himself and i blush a bit before laughing. "All good, babe."
He smiles quickly kisses me.
"So, what you recording for...?"

I tell him i have been recording covers and when i went to tell him about youtube, i decide not too. If he finds out, he finds out. We talk about how we have been, he is really proud of me about my recovery. Before he heads home, I wave him bye, before heading inside. Planning to shower then edit and upload.

I sit down, planning to upload it in an hour or so. I sit and put on Markiplier, i hadn't watched for a while cause i did miss him, so, i'd barely been watching him. But it feels good to watch him again.

Next Day
I decided to upload it today, but not yet. I throw on a band shirt, bracelets, ripped black jeans, pure black knock offs of converse. Just as my phone goes off, I look to see a text and youtube notication.
Oh Mark-- wait, Mark?!
I grab my phone, a text from Jack.
Jackaboy- 'We found you.'
I am confused till i see Jack and Mark commented on my youtube, how did they find it? I notice my first cover is getting popular with comments. The newest was a couple minutes ago by Mark and Jack.
"She said she wan-" i stop the video and look at the comments.
Markiplier- 'Yay! You finally got out there, I love them ❤ Keep it up, you boner.'
I laugh, liking the comment.
Jacksceptieye- 'Yesss bitch! Finally. Thank fuck.'
I like it, rolling my eyes, laughing.
I grab my laptop, quickly starting to upload it, writing the description and everything else needed. I haven't bothered with a thumbnail yet. It starts loading, so i turn the tv off, wanting to go for a walk while checking the comments. I always give it five to ten mintues before i start looking, not that i am that popular. Maybe one day. Joking.

As i am walking, checking some comments and answering/liking/love. Just as i am in the midst of answering GeekyGrl (i dont know 😂), my phone rings, being Jack.
"Ello?" I say, answering.
"Calm the fuck dude!"
"No! Why didn't you tell me your youtube or even tell Mark about it?! Seriously?!"
I laugh "Calm down, it isn't that amazing."
"It is!! I will put up your thing with Mark, and yes, i still have it. He doesn't know."
"Oh god no, pleaseeee."
"We will see- well, bye!" He hangs up.

-Marks POV-
"Shut up with the yelling Jack." I groan, as he yells from the lounge room while i am in the kitchen, getting my drink. "Seriously, what is soooo amazing?"
I ask as i head into the lounge room, confused as fuck.
"She really can sing..." he says and i am getting more confused.
"Jack, what the actual fuck?!"
"Y/n!" He says and i now get more interested "She did start a channel, look!"
He turns it, not bothering to restart it as i hear her voice, her amazing voice.
"She doesn't know she's beautiful because no ones ever told her so..." she sings, whilest playing guitar. I quickly grab my phone out and look her channel up, subscribing and liking her video before commenting and seeing Jack did the same. I smile, as i let it play through. She really can sing. Wheather, she believes it or not.
"Damn... she is good." Jack says and notice him go into texts.
"So, you did get her new number?"
"Yeah, she had wanted to start a fresh, that is why she got a new one. Pretty smart. Except she ditched the amazing me and, i guess, you."
I chuckle, rolling my eyes before turning back to the video. She is in a usual like outfit for her, barely any makeup on and her arms are covered but if you paused it heaps, you probably could see some scars. If anyone says anything about them, i will be pissed. I smile once more.
"So, that is why she was recording yesterday..." i say aloud, proud of her.
(That was before she uploaded the new one.)

-Y/n POV-
I finish walking and head home, getting a few more likes and comments on my video but i did spend some time at a park to go through them properly and while walking there, now i want to head home and spend some time to game.

I get into my frint door, shutting it and taking a deep breath and a exhausted sigh before throwing myself to the couch, putting Pewdiepie on my laptop and turning my Playstation//XBox on. I begin to game my favorite game, laughing at Felix.
Very nice!!
I chuckle, finally feeling relaxed.
A week clean from self harm.
Eating is improving.
I am getting my life back on track, and having my friends and maybe possibly the guy i love/boyfriend.
But i still worry that things will go downhill yet again, don't they always?

**brofists** 👊