Fixing Me ~ Markiplier x Reader

Reunited

Shaking.
Scared.
Worried.
Nervous.
Anxious.
These are a few words about how i feel right now, as we approach the door.
"You sure babe?" Mark asks, as we get to the door, he is still holding my hand tightly.
I simply nod. He nods back. Before he knocks, making my anxiety get worse. Worries coming in and out so fast, but i remember them. Burning into my brain.

...The door opens...

Jack.
"Jack, is that Mark...?"
I hear her, my heart beat quickens and there she is. In the distance, behind Jack but i can see her fully. She spots me, and the bad and good dreams replay in my mind, I expect her to yell. I shut my eyes, opening them again and i see tears in her eyes.
"Bitch..." She says.

And she runs over to hug me, showing she missed me or i hope so. And that she is glad to have me back with her...

But she doesn't. She bolts up to another room, and i sigh, deciding it is now or never. I sprint in, after her, I hear Mark call me then Jack but i keep going.
I need to try.
I race up and finally find her in a room, as she tries to get to the bathroom, i reach out and grab her hand.
"I am sorry! Please! I have been working on myself so much, and for me! I want to get better!"
She turns to me.
"Please! I miss my best friend! The one that would sit up and make jokes with me, especially bonercast ones- the friend that will be there for me everyday, anytime! The friend that i don't deserve but i am glad to fucking have! The best friend that i love. And care so much for... and i don't know where i would be without her. But i need her to look at me right now, and if she wants me to leave. I will."
She looks at me, silence, neither one of us talking now. I sigh softly.
"Just tell me if you want me here! Please!! I need to know that!"
No answer.
"Because i can't keep hurting you, and even myself now..."
"No." Is all she says and i take a shaky breath and turn around.
"That it is all i had to know..." i begin to walk out, getting out of the room as tears build up in my eyes.
I head down and out the front door as they begin to fall.
She said it.
You wanted it.
You knew she wouldn't want you.

"You boner!"
B/n. That is her. I stop walking, but don't turn around to face her.
"I want you..."
"Don't lie please..." i softly say.
"I am not. I ne- no! I want you!"
I turn around now and face her, realizing she isn't joking.
"W-wait... r-really?" I say between cries.
She nods.

"So, you and Mark eh?" She asks as we walk back to the boys, as we are just down the road.
"Yep." I pop the p.
"So, you guys done it yet?"
I blush.
"Oh my god!! My pure baby is not so innocent!"
"Oh shut up!" I push her a bit and she laughs.
"So, your youtube?"
I roll my eyes as we meet up with the boys.
Maybe it is a hard start.
But. It is a start.

"Truth or d-d-dareeee?!" She laughs, looking at me.
"Dareeee my boy!"
"Hmmm," she grins "can't you do truth?"
I roll my eyes and nod "Fine."
"What is the kinkiest thing you and Mark have done?" She winks.
"You are a weirdo..." i laugh, awkwardly.

"I missed you." I tell her as the other boys are asleep and she smiles.
"Me too bub, I am glad to have you back." She reaches her hand out and holds mine. "Love you, you twat."
"Twit twot twat!" I laugh "and you dickeater!"
We are both on the floor, on the blankets, and laughing. The guys on each of the couches. Sleeping.
"Soooo, you guys have done it how many times?" She jokes and i roll my eyes, pushing her.
"You are a mess, get some sleep."
She just does and over dramatic sigh.

It might not be the same as before. But it is a start for us.

**brofists** 👊
(It is 12:03am and i cant sleep)