𝐒𝐓 & 𝐈𝐓 𝐈𝐌𝐀𝐆𝐈𝐍𝐄𝐒 𝐓𝐖𝐎 !! (𝙍𝙀𝙌𝙐𝙀𝙎𝙏𝙎 𝘼𝙍𝙀 𝙊𝙋𝙀𝙉!)

CHAPTER 23.2 (s.u)

SUICIDE HOTLINE
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stan's p.o.v

hello welcome to suicide hotline, if you are experiencing depression. press 1
if you feel like you want to kill your self, press 2 and if you are feeling worthless press 3. if you are experiencing all listed, press 4.

you have pressed 4.

we will transfer you to a representative who can hopefully help with your situation.

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welcome to suicide hotline, my name is y/n how may I help you today?

I feel horrible..

I'm so sorry for that sir, I see that you have pressed 4 can you tell me why you are experiencing these things..

Stan.

Stan.

I hate myself, I feel as thought that I'm not worth anything. I feel fat and ugly all the time, I feel as though everyone stares at me in disgust because of how I look. My friends say that's not the case but I think other wise. I don't want to be in this world anymore if all I feel is pain everyday..

well, that's heartbreaking Stan. you must have some kind of conscious telling you it's the wrong decision to kill your self especially since you dialed us. Why don't we go over some exercises, yeah?

sure.

okay why don't we start with a breathing technique, just exhale deep and inhale slow, yeah?

ok
I did as she said and she praised me, she was nice and I liked her. she was helpful.

you are doing great Stan! Now why don't we start with something a little harder, okay?

sure

I want you to look in the closest mirror and look at yourself, I want you to try to praise yourself bc you are worth it. Repeat after me.  I am worth it, I am strong, I am handsome and I can do anything I put my mind to.

I don't know-

try it Stan, you can do it

okay
I don't why but her voice calmed me in some way, I walked in front of my mirror and started to repeat what she said.

I am worth it, i am strong, I am uh handsome and I can do anything I put my mind to.

amazing! That's so good! I want you to recite that everyday for the next 3 months, tell me how you feel at the end of it. Now for one more exercise. This one might be hard but I know you can do it. okay?

y-yeah

okay I want you to grab your razors and throw them in the dumpster outside.

My breath hitched and she notice my silence.
you can do it Stan.
I nodded to my self and went into my bathroom, picking up the razor and looked down at them. I put on some shoes and walked out of my house. I saw the dumpster only a few feet away.
I walked up to it, lightly shaking. I opened the dumpster and dumped them in. I breathed out the breath I didn't know I was holding, it felt good to be able to do such a bold move and I mean bold.

When I arrived back into my house I sighed.

I did it.

that's amazing Stan! I knew you could do it! Is that all you want to talk about Stan?

uh y-yeah

thank you for dialing suicide hotline, my name is y/n. if you want to contact me again just say the number 453 in your device. Have a great day!

you too.

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I laid on my bed, looking at my ceiling feeling good for the first time in forever.
I definitely knew one thing, I had to meet y/n.