Hanahaki Disease

The grip of gale

Peter hasn't woken up yet.
It's been weeks and....I thought he was dead...

That's why I've been sad.
I turned down Thor when he asked me out.
When everyone else asked me if they wanted to go hang out.
I wanted to be alone.

I passed by the medical room peter was staying at and walked inside.

He was breathing out of a CPAP machine.
He wore a hospital gown and his face was bruised.
I grabbed his hand and kissed.

I smiled, but then....he started shaking, his breathing was quick.
He was choking of some sort.

Losing his life.
****
Everyone came in and practically blamed everything on me.

I pushed them out of my way and grabbed peter.
I placed my forehead onto his forehead and whispered something.
A spell.

His damaged body was now a good and normal one.

I didn't have his breathing, but I had all the cuts.
I lurched forward and slammed against the metallic bed peter laid on.

I fell to the floor and gripped my head.

A headache....great....
****
Peter gave me a hug but I pushed him away.
"I don't deserve your affection....b-before I helped you....t-they said some shitty things to me. I put a spell on you....your damaged body became imprinted on me. I have all the cuts on me...." I said.

"Thanks so much....you're really-!"

"Please don't say I'm nice!" I yelled.
"I'm evil! Tony said it! Steve said it! Bruce said it! Bucky and everyone else said it! I'm a sin! I should be GONE forever because I'm so evil! Nobody loves me! I don't love myself! I'm horrible!" I cried.
I wiped a bunch of tears away before I continued.

"I know thor loves me, but...if he knew why I was so sad...It would crush him. He'd ask so many questions, I'd start crying, and so would he..." I whimpered.

"What did you come down with...?" Peter asked, sitting down next to me.

"I don't know if it's really depression, but....I've just been really sad at most times at random times." I said.
Peter hugged me and I hugged him.
I looked over his shoulder and saw the blond in the kitchen, pouring an overflowing cup of coffee for himself.
****
We sat in Tony's lab.
Just us two after what happened.

"Talk to me...please..." Thor asked, tears already overflowing.
Mine were as well.

"How long..?" He asked.

"A-Awhile....it started the first time tony has yelled at me....I felt useless and unwanted since. Nobody knows how much crying I did in my room....and nobody cares! T-Tony just yells at me and his yelling has an odd effect on me....especially when it's everyone else. They all yelled at me for causing peter to go into near death. I'd jump out of that window again or something higher-"

He got up and walked away in a hurry.

He always did this when he didn't want anyone else to see him cry a lot.
****
"Suicidal thoughts...?" Thor asked.
I nodded slowly and he looked away, his nose becoming red.

"I-I'm Sorry-"

He hugged me tightly, trying to squeeze them away. The thoughts I hated....practically went away....the suicidal parts went away....but not the bullied part from tony that I got....
****
"I really do apologize for making you feel that way...everyone apologizes as well, but....they didn't want to tear up like I am because it would've lost their 'credibility'." Tony smirked, wiping away his tears.

I nodded and did something I never did....

I hugged him.
I hugged tony.
****

It was dinner and everyone was socializing, laughing, and having a good time.

And then there's me...
I'm in a light purple sweater,
Shorts,
And socks.

I pushed my food around and rested my head in my left hand.

I sighed and Bruce looked at me.

"And why are you so sad...?" He asked.
I didn't look up I only responded in a shrug.

"Look at him when he's talking-" tony was cut off.

"Leave her alone..." Peter muttered.

"I'm sorry peter, but the grownups are talking-"
Peter slammed his hands onto the table and stood up.

"She has been though hell! Can't you guys just either leave her alone or try and make her feel included? She feels alienated again and I know how much that sucks! She just- *sighs* she just wants to be loved for what or who she is. Don't judge her-"

I threw mashed potatoes at peter.
I started to snicker and it turned into a laugh.

"W-when I was younger, my brother and I used to make a huge mess in the dining room! Mom and dad got so pissed but joined in as well!" I laughed.
Peter stuck his hand into the pie and threw it at tony.
He wiped it away and threw his last bit of champagne at steve.

"A civil war it is." Steve said, licking his lips.
****
I sat in the tub filled with water and sighed.
It was so much fun to be apart of this team.

Well, I wasn't joining in anyways, but...it's like they're a family.

I miss that...
I shrugged off and got up, emptied the water, and got out of the shower-

And he stood there, his face was flushed with red and bashfulness in seconds.

"I-I know fertility is your thing, b-but....no." I said, wrapping myself in a towel.

"But June-" Thor smirked.

"No thanks!" I said.
****
"This just in....the Norse god in New York has gotten together with a girl who's fairly....not perfect for him in MY opinion. Should he stick with it or ditch it?" The news woman asked, before signing off.

Everyone met eyes with me and I sighed.

I was being bullied for the bullshit I have to deal with from these people...

It got solved somehow in a matter of weeks because of....some electrical difficulties.

Yeah.....

That sounds believable, right....?