Hanahaki Disease

The answer

"And then I ran and now I feel like a pussy for not responding!" I cried into the pillow.
I ran to Peter's house and luckily Aunt May was there to help me.
And peter as well, of course.

"I mean....do you love him?" May asked.
I nodded.
"Do you really love him? As in you'll do anything to be with him?" Peter asked.
I nodded again.
"Then If you believe you truly love him and care for him and he does the same to you as well....then go say yes." May smiled.

I ran back to the tower afterwards.
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"May said that if I truly love you and you...truly love me and we're committed into doing this, then....I say yes." I smiled.
He looked at me skeptically but then smiled.
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"Well, if I love her then I should be able to-!"
"She is a monster compared to our people! Do you remember what her father did to us so long ago!? Marry that Jane girl instead and then I'll rethink." Odin spoke.

I stood there quietly.
Nope.
I had enough.
"Look Odin. I don't care about your pettiness against my people and yours. So get off your sore ass and do something about it. If you're not petty, care about your son's life, Loki eventually being gay, me being with your firstborn, then stand the FUCK UP!" I yelled.

He scoffed.
"Insolent brat! You....you drugged my son into turning him against me!?" He demanded to know the answer.
"Father, she didn't drug me-"

"Be quiet!" Odin spat.

"And what's wrong with me being with Thor, hm? Doesn't fit well? My body isn't perfect? Well he tamed this beast in me. I'll show you what he tamed over the years..." I said, beginning to change.

Pause:
Imagine your average huge ass demon.
Horns,
Tail,
multi eyes,
Sharp teeth,
Huge claws.

Now imagine that beast literally inches away from Odin.

Un-pause:
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"Your son had the courage to come up to me in a war and be nice. And funny thing is....it was a war between your people and mine. What sucks the most is that him, and a human boy understand the pain I have to endure from mother fuckers like you. I love him and he...loves me. Even though we fight a lot, we have our sad times, and anger spurts out..,,I still love him. I mean, he helps me out a lot and actually appreciates my body even when I don't." I said, eventually reverting back to normal.
I pushed a few hairs behind my ear and continued.
"It doesn't matter. I didn't drug him. I didn't hypnotize him. I used what's called 'being caring and nice' unlike your parenting skills...anyways, it doesn't matter. By law you don't own New York. So if we get married there, you can't change it." I smiled.

He looked conflicted.

"Fine then. You two can be together. Just go..." he whispered.
We began to walk away.

"Oh, And btw Odin: your son, Loki, yeah. Have fun meeting his boyfriend." I smirked.
****
"I made a fort." I said, pointing to the fort I made.
Tony looked defeated.
I laid on my back and slid in there.

"I stole some food and put it in here! Peters's in here, hi peter. Thor's...doing something. Natasha's in here. Basically everyone's in here!" I cheered.

"How in the fuck did you make a huge fort?" Tony asked.

"I asked everyone to bring pillows and blankets from their rooms." I said.
Tony ended up joining in as well.
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I laid my head on Thor's arm and smirked as everyone else was asleep.

"Wanna join them...?" He asked.
I shook my head.
"No....I'm fine...." I said.

"What troubles your head?" Thor asked.
I shrugged.

"I don't know....everyone seems so happy...we eventually have to tell them we're together, as in getting married. It'll be awkward....I don't want to ruin the fun we have left till someone comes and attacks us like 'always'." I sighed.

He kissed my head and smiled.
"It'll be fine....I hope. But it's going to be ok....if anyone or anything comes to attack, we have your back. We're a team, remember?"
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"We have something we want to tell you all..." I started.
"We're getting married." Thor finished.

Everyone stopped what they were doing and stared at us.

"Dead serious...?" Natasha asked.
I nodded slowly.

At least....I thought so....
****
As I peaked through the small window of the door, leading to the alter....I didn't see him there.

He didn't come....
After all we went though.

Up to this moment!
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I was sitting in the bathroom tub, drinking a mix of alcohol and some soda I think.

The word "wedding" was written on the tiled wall and was crossed out by red lipstick.

I wore a pantyhose and had one leg sticking out of the bathtub.

My hair was a mess.
My eyeliner was running.
My lipstick was messy.

I was a mess.

Everyone else was still at "the wedding" but I was at the tower.
****
Hours later, I'm still in here.

Update: I wrote his name and every time I wrote "LIAR!" on the tiled wall, I pointed it to his name.

Odin was right.

Instead of me drugging him.
He drugged me into thinking I could trust him.
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Peter walked in, still wearing his tux.
He sat down near the tub and sighed.

He was disappointed as well.
"It's ok kid....at least you didn't hit rock bottom like I did....what happened to him anyways...? Do you know..?" I asked him in a groggy voice.

"He left in such a hurry before he had to go up. He was freaking out. He wasn't ready to commit like you were. He really does love you, but-"

"If he put you up to this, then tell him to shut the fuck up. Because I don't believe him. Not anymore. After what I did to help him, he does this to me!" I yelled, throwing an empty bottle at the door, causing it to shatter.

He looked at me, frightened as hell.

"I'm sorry." I apologized.
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I sat in "our bed" and sighed.

I know you were scared....so was I....

But I conquered my fear...why didn't you...?

Ah, I see.

You were still scared like you were all those years ago when you first met me.
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*Thor*
I sat in "my" throne and sighed.
"I'm sorry my love.....duty calls..." I sighed.

"Are you sure you made the right decision brother..? She might misinterpret this and come here-"

"Loki, please. She wouldn't." I smirked.
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*june*

Fuck it, I'm going there to find out some answers.