Enemies to lovers

Prolouge

Prologue

4 years ago:

I always know when things aren't going to be good. I have this feeling in the pit of my stomach. I just know. I hadn't seen my best friend Nick all summer. I missed him. I actually have very strong feeling for him, but it's not worth ruining our friend over. Sometimes I'd catch him looking at me. We had this undeniable chemistry. When I'd touch him I'd feel this electricity. But I knew I didn't have a chance. He was too perfect, and there i was completely fucked up. I knew deep down i didn't deserve anything good in my life. I fuck up everyones life around me. Even if he saw me as something more than his best friend, I'm still scared to pursue anything, or fuck him up as well.. To bury my feelings deep down I went out with this guy from out school Wilmer. He's actually a senior. I don't know what he saw in me. He's actually kind of a shitty boyfriend. But I feel like this is how I deserve to be treated.

With the way my life has gone, I don't deserve much. My issues start with my birth dad I guess. My dad is an alcoholic and one night he got really drunk and almost molested me. I kept screaming until my mom busted through the window. After that day, I never saw him again. I never told anyone, not even Nick. As much as I love Nick, he deserves someone without problems.

"Hey babe?" Wilmer said interrupting my thoughts.

"Hmm?"

"What are you thinking about?" He said as he was nuzzling my neck trying to kiss it. I never felt a connection with Wilmer as I did Nick.

"Nothing just watching Tv." I said as he moved his hand on my thigh. He started moving his hand closer and closer to my sweet spot. I wasn't ready. I knew I didn't want to have sex yet. I knew I had issues with sex, especially almost being molested by my father. Of course he didn't know, but still. "Wilmer, no. I don't want to have sex." I firmly said moving his hand away from my vagina.

"Why not? We've been dating for months. C'mon be a cool. God." He said Rolling his eyes. With this being said, he grabbed and quickly moved on top of me, shoving his tongue in my mouth. As I tried to get out of his grasp, he held my wrist down tighter and tighter. I tried to scream and wiggle my way out, but this just made him suck harder on my lips. as I opened my eyes ,which i had previously squeezed shut, he had his pants and shirt off

"Wilmer! No! Stop." I screamed, which was no help because no one was home. in one swift motion I used my legs and kicked him in his balls. He then groaned and raised his hand up to slap me, which ended in me punching him in the nose. "Get the fuck out. Now!" i screamed at him.  Thank God he listened and left.

The next morning I tried not to think of the previous events with Wilmer. My heart was broken. It almost happened again, now at this rate i'd never want to have sex. whats wrong with me? why do men try these things with me? do I give off a certain vibe? i truly do not understand. I just want someone to love me, truly love me for me. washing away my thoughts, I remembered Nicks finally coming back today. I needed a hug, especially from him. Nick always gave the best hugs.  I've never gotten ready so quick in my life. I practically ran to Nicks house.

"Hi Nick!" I said as he opened the door going in for a hug right be for when stopped me. What? He always hugged. It was the one thing I could do that distracted me from jumping on his bones. I feel his body shifting away from me, he didn't hug me back. This wasn't my nick. I tried to look in his eyes to see what was wrong, but all I saw was anger, and a burning hatred. 

"Demi I'm going to tell you this once. Stay the fuck away from me, and never talk to me again." My heart just broke into a million pieces. I could feel the tears burning my eyes. I don't even know what I did. I just lost my best fucking friend and the man I'm madly in love with all in one. I couldn't say anything. I knew it. I knew something bad was going to happen. Right now I just wanted my best friend. And he didn't even want me. I was frozen.

"I'm sorry? Nick what? What do you mean?" I finally said when I found my voice.

"What I said. Stay away from me. I hate you Demi Lovato." He said in the most serious tone. I felt like I couldn't breathe. Like all the walls were closing in on me. He hates me. I couldn't move. I felt like I was dying. I felt numb. I wanted to die. I lost him with out even being with him. What the fuck.

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