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Noticed Part 4 + Hai = Spam

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I AM CRYING FROM EARLIER, SO KRISTIAN KORDULA WHO PLAYS NOAH AND IS MY 2ND GUY IDOL POST A PICTURE OF HIM AND A GIRL AND HIS CAPTION WAS DECISIONS, DECISIONS, AND DECISIONS (IN THE EP FOR A SCENE WITH A GIRL AND HIM) SOO I POST A COMMENT SAYING I THINK I KNOW WHAT IT IS NO JOKE (I ACTUALLY WAS RIGHT) AND, KRISTIAN KORDULA LIKED MY COMMENT, I JUST AM SO HAPPY AND JODI WHO PLAYS LIONEL KINDA NOTICE ME. BUT, JAMES, AIKONA, (HOST) AND JODI WILL PROBABLY NOTICE ME LATER SINCE I HAD POST ON MY INSTAGRAM #DANCEOFFPANTSOFF PLEASE DONT EVEN ASK

Okay so I knew Noah had actually have an ex. But, 1. I didn't expect him being actually gay, I thought he was bisexual. And, 2. His ex is a boy. But, can I just say, I feel bad for him tho, his ex left him without a goodbye since he thought it would make him better. That was touching tho, and so Jude got out of the booth and sat next to him and hug him, kissed his shoulder. And, then! Noah held his hand, I'm gonna Show the picture in a sec, it's so adorable. So, now I'm just going to give a clap for this reason, Noah actually called Jude boyfriend. Why a clap? So, the reason is because Jude never had a boyfriend before and Jude was surprised because he never had experience on being with a guy, I mean ugh I mean yes he was with Zero but they weren't boyfriends, so when I mean being with a guy I mean having a boyfriend

Okay here is the picture, I actually took 2, 1. Jude kissed his shoulder. 2. Noah holding his hand (I had to retake the pictures, so the time is off)

BTS is amazing just like everyone else but me

Yeah I am an army

My brother got me into BTS

Speaking about Brother. We went somewhere else but my mum tag along. He is actually all packed and ready to leave. His stuff are sold, and well his tv he gave it to his mum. I will miss him though, he said we'll see each other again but that won't happen :( he also changed a lot! Like, he used to look like Brent but then changed. He look nothing like him. -_- I miss him and also I might not have that much WiFi this Saturday since I am sleeping over at my eldest brother (the one who took me to see Phan and now Troye Sivan) apartment. My birthday is coming up tho and what makes me kinda upset is that next week I was supposed to see Lexie for the first time. But, well guess what I'm not seeing her since I told my family I don't want to go Virginia

I might have this issue. Okay, so I don't know about this but I might like another straight girl well I don't know if she is straight

When I said, "I dislike this fandom"

Someone thought I hated Phan

I don't even hate Phan aka Dan and Phil. I said fandom and the fandom was sope aka Suga x Jhope like ew. Jimin x Yoongi/Suga all the way no offense

I'm tired but staying up for few more mins or 2-3 hours

I start school on September 6th

Thursday this year -_-

I listen to this when I write my books. It's sad Korean mix and My all time favorite song that a band was featured is. The Rose - Sorry

I am actually going to sleep in 20 mins

Oscar allowing Jude to take down Eve

Boi :> thx for that but like help?

I don't really trust Oscar tho

I feel like when Jude isn't looking, Oscar is going to take the Devils from him

I actually do predict it since he's Oscar Kinkade (I love when I write Oscar and Jude it shows after I push space, Kinkade)

I did listen to a few BTS songs but wasn't really a major fan of them until I don't remember when but was this year and it was recent

Sorry for the long part

I just have somethings to talk about

Remember when I confessed writing a goodbye/suicide note?

Well I actually cried when I finish writing about it since I feel I hurt my friends and I'm sorry if I did

I hate eating so much 😢

But, I force myself to eat just for people to be happy even tho Its hurting me

I technically have an eating disorder and insomnia

I did research on insomnia and I clearly have that since the signs match

I miss him, I miss B

I miss being A, him being B, and brother being C

I'm just A and my brother is B now

😭 I have a triplet who I don't see anymore since he is no longer here with my family. Technically he died 2 weeks old but still 😭

I'm sorry that I write depressing stuff, no one really knows what I go through behind closed doors

Myself, life, family, and etc

Did you know I use to do soccer and my family would always go my games and practices but soon had stop and only 2-1 goes to my games and practices. But, after few years of playing soccer. I had to quit soccer for reasons

I have to deal with growing up sad because every 1 minute I'm afraid of losing people, and having no one

Goodbye and I hope you enjoyed this part, hopefully next part isn't sad like this if it was