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So I have been feeling sick lately. I'm really upset and all. I want to take a break from being here (life) but it's been hard

2 nights ago,
I wanted to tell myself that I was okay and not hurting but everything was hurting me. I was crying and wishing I wasn't here. I have to keep on saying, "everything is fine, I'm fine" but it's no use. I'm not fine

I'm on a vacation currently with my family and I'm being sad and depressed. I don't want to feel those or anything bad to myself. But, I'm being hurt and upset more and more. I want to just give up already, but I'm slowly am! I am getting sick of seeing myself and saying, "oh I'm half pretty and ugly" but, the truth is, I am ugly. The thing is, I'm talking about this because I'm not ready for something

I am told that once my dad gets enough money I might go to somewhere to talk about how I feel. But, I do and don't want help. I'm hurting, crying, and being damage. I am shaking, telling myself "everything is alright! Stop worrying!" But, it's not use! I'm worrying about everything. Myself and others I care about

I am not even important anyway. I'm crying each time when I want to be happy. Earlier when, I was walking on the sidewalk I started to cry. I felt tears coming down myself, but I hid them and showed a fake smile

I'm not crying, actually I feel like I'm about to cry but hiding it

I like being called, "annoying" so, just start calling me that since I'm just feeling it that's it's perfect for me to hear

I will be active on here, IMessage, and Hangouts though

Well,

Bye

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