Yesterday, was not my breakdown not like usual. That was actually my life ending. But, no one actually really saw the post which makes sense but one person after an hour it was posted, someone who is my friend actually commented and said, "Casey stop", "go on the group chat right now" beepbeepbitchez
Technically, in the beginning I didn't feel like replying. Because, I was crying really bad, and well right at that point I did reply and said, "I am on it" I started crying more and more, my friends chicagogetsmysoul-user52790499smolbby- helped me with it. Well, so what caused the trigger?
Okay, so there were 2 triggers that caused it. 1. My grandfather passing. His funeral is on his birthday, December 4th. And I'm going. I was really close to my grandfather, he was the only one in my family who believes me with my depression, and etc and also he was the only one in my family who listens and pays attention to me. He was the first one who called me, "Julie" and "Jules" he passed away on Saturday and I found out on Sunday since my family knows I'm a emotional person who takes jokes seriously sometimes. Yea go ahead, make fun of me. 2. My best friend (dark-_whispers) I miss her so much that I kept on saying on the group chat, "I miss her", "I don't want her to leave me", and etc. Okay, so that might sound dramatic or whatever but you need to realize that she is my best friend and wattpad sister. I care so much better, she's like an older sister to me. She makes me smile and laugh. Call me dramatic, go ahead, my ex called me dramatic.
Now how did I get help. Okay, so during the time of the issue. I did actually kinda did cut, but it wasn't deep, I didn't plan to make it deep at all. Anyway. So, I know this may be stupid but, I don't care about myself. I mean like, my eating disorder sucks, my depression sucks, and everything about myself sucks. So, the story comes from here happens, I started yes starting to feel better from what happened until my anxiety attack token the worse. I haven't had a overwhelmed attack since yesterday on the bus. Basically, it was because it got really dark outside and lights from the afterschool bus were hitting trees or showing lights at trees. I am scared of the dark actually, I'm not even joking. I wish I was, but I am not. So, my anxiety attack usually happens while I'm crying and speaking. And, well I did get help. So, my friend (smolbby-) helped me with it. Basically doing these exercise works and it did work for me.
So am I Okay now? Or is there anything wrong?
- Not Okay and never will be - Yes everything is wrong - Somewhat okay - There is somethings wrong
The answer is: "Somewhat okay" and "there is somethings wrong"
But, I'll managed. Also, did you all see this?
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Like excuse me, most of my writing are fanfics.
Also, to all of my friends who i am friends with (some doesn't have wattpad)
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I should mention this now and that is, I listed my 2 crushes on there. I also got a new crush for a girl. So this girl is my best online friend and I don't know if she is taken or not but she is really nice and supportive, beautiful, and wonderful. For a boy, same guy but, he doesn't have wattpad. Here are names and you can guess what the guys name by writing a comment next to their name and say "this one"
