"It says positive." She whispers, "You are pregnant Scarlett."
No, no this can't be happening to me and why now of all times.
Swirling images of a baby growing inside me fill my head. I'm suddenly hit by a wave of dizziness and everything dissipates into nothingness.
"Scarlett, Scarlett, Scarlett wake up please." Echo of someone's voice pulls me back to reality.
"What happened." I blink as my eyes adjust to the light.
"You fainted, how are you feeling?" The image of Amanda comes into focus.
My limbs feel like jello and am extremely lightheaded. Then I recall her telling me that I was pregnant and I wish I never woke up. Desperation invades my senses and I can't control the sobs escaping my mouth.
"Hey, it's gonna be ok. We'll figure this thing out." Amanda tries to soothe me but all I can think of is, There is a fucking baby growing in my fucking womb!!!
I just single handedly ruined my life. Well Justine helped but where is he now?
"Is it his?" Amanda's voice snaps me into reality.
"Yeah, what am I gonna do Amanda, what am I gonna do...." I cry
"Shhhh hey, you need to calm down. Everything is gonna be ok. Just calm down."
"H...how? We are two days away from the final exams and I just found out am pregnant.Oooh god w..what am I going to do?" I sob incoherently while amanda rubs my back.
"You are going to calm down, panic is only gonna make things worse for you. Trust me, I've been through this before but I overcame it. Just calm down Scarlett."
"W...what do you mean? Y..you have a baby?"
"Eeer....had a baby removed."
"You've had an abortion?" I ask stupefied.
"Yeah, about a year ago, and look at me am fine I got my life back in order." She says rubbing my back.
I remain silent trying to comprehend what she just said. Could I really do that? I look at her calmly sitting beside me. If she could then so can I......after all its the easiest way out.
I just can't picture myself with a huge tummy and I highly doubt my mum will let me live that long. Oh God my mum....how is she going to take this, and Justine. He would think am crazy.
It finally dawns on me, abortion is the only option I have.
I am so screwed, am quite sure even a cesspit mouse wouldn't want to be in my shoes.
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That evening as I leave the classroom am joined by candy who I haven't spoken to the whole day, and I am
sure she's dying to know why.
"If I didn't know you better I'd think you are avoiding me." She chirps.
"Well it's good you know better, not everything revolves around you."
"Ouch..." She suddenly stops walking when I look at her I find her staring back at me with pain stricken face. I sigh and mentally looking for something apologetic to say to her.
"Don't bother I've adapted quite well to your rusty days. So what happened this time around did mummy ban you from using strawberry flavoured milk." She mimics a voice of a toddler while her lips is pulled in a pout.
How I wish my grievances only went that deep. I sighed and released a bitter chuckle.
"Goodness Scarlett people out there have bigger problems and your here clouding your days silly little issues."
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