IRREVERSIBLE

CHAPTER 7

Fear, jealousy, anger and bitterness are manifestation of love starvation.

Am awaken by murmuring voices coming from downstairs. Curtains beaming with morning sunshine makes me smile. What a perfect way to start a day. Voices from downstairs get louder and louder. I try to listen in but the voices are inaudible, all I can tell is that the voices are from my mum and a man.

That's odd, mum never brings her male friends home. I put on my flip flops and tiptoe my way downstairs. As I get closer to the kitchen the voices get louder. Oh my goodness, could it be? I listen in some more. Oh God, he came back! He came back for me. "Daddy?" I breathlessly call out to the man standing by the kitchen counter. He turns and looks at me, my jaw drops.

Sweet Mary mother of Jesus! I cover my mouth to suppress my gasp. He came back for me....."Daddy You came back", he looks at me with straight face displaying no emotion. His eyes cold and distant...somethings not right. The bleakness in his stare makes my heart clench with uncertainty. "Daddy what's wrong-" someone grabs my arm from behind me and pulls me back.

"Everything that happened to this family is your fault." My mum sneers full of Vancouver.
"What?" I try to comprehend what she said. She drags me to the front door and I try to grasp anything that comes my way. "Mum stop it you are hurting me! Dad!.....daddy make her stop. Mum what are you doing, you are hurting me!" I protest looking at my dad but he's motionless, what's going on?

"I don't want to ever set my eyes on you again. You are nothing but a curse sent to damn our lives!" She throws me out and shuts the door.

"Mum open the door please. Why are you doing this to me....muuuummy!.....Daddy please open the door..." I bang the door tirelessly. A sudden sound of a whimpering child hits my ears. When I turn to look my eyes almost pop out of their sockets. "Timmy?...." he's looking at me with the most heartbreaking stare I've ever seen. His skin is all grey, swollen and wet. So much water is dripping from him but I can't see it's main source. He stretches his wobbly arms to reach outfit me and I freak out.

"Get.....Get away from me." I run out of my mum's mansion faster than a lightning bolt. After passing by some few houses I spot Amanda's car. I head for it puffing. My chest is exploding and my mind is reeling. When I get to the car I find Amanda and Jessica on the grass just next to the car. "Amanda, Jessica.....help me...my Mum kicked me out. I saw my dad but he looked angry and I don't know why...and Timmy too....Amanda are you listening?" In between my blabbering I realise they are not paying any attention to me.

"Jessica! Look at me am talking to you!" They look at something in Amanda's phone and start laughing. What's wrong with these two, can't they see me? I kneel in between them and pull their arms.

They both turn their heads to me. Their faces straight and eyes devoid of any feelings. "You are not one of us, you don't belong here."they say in unison. I back away quickly like I just got my hand burnt. Darkness starts settling in and everything else disappears. It feels like am in limbo. "Someone's having a bad day. I turn and see justine with a lopsided smirk plastered on his face. Do I ask for his help? Will he understand me?

"Nobody wants me, they threw me out. Am alone" I start sobbing incoherently. "Do you know why?.......because You are a neurotic uptight bitch that thinks of nothing else but yourself." He says walking to me, "with the way you are headed, not even your money will fill the void in you."

He looks into my fearful eyes smiling then he turns and walks away. "No!
Where are you going don't leave me here!" I yell but he keeps walking away till he dissipates into thin air. All alone.....Am all alone. I drop to my knees and start sobbing.