IRREVERSIBLE

CHAPTER 12

Stab the body and it heals but injure the heart and the wounds lasts a lifetime.

Scarlett pov

The moment I get to my room I lock the door behind me and head for the bathroom. My heart is bleeding profusely, am no stranger to pain but this overthrows them all.

I strip off my clothes and get into the shower hoping that the heavy splashes will somehow wash away the pain I am feeling.

He thinks am stupid.

Stupid enough to believe him even when he's lying to my face. I let my guard down for minute and this happens.

How could I be so foolish as to believe that someone would genuinely like someone as damaged as me.

Alex was right, I am going to regret choosing him over my friends.  Look at me now. Normal girls would run to their mums for comfort but the only thing I have close to that is my shower.

I feel a stab of pain every time I think of how many times they've been together. I try to cry it out but it hurts.

It hurts so bad to think that I worked so hard to be a better person for someone who's only toying with me.

Am I so worthless that I don't deserve anything good in my life?

When I get out of the shower I feel exhausted, everything hurts. How I feel I could just turn it all off.

I twist and turn in bed for what feels like an eternity. My mind has been going through all the events in my life and all I can come up with is.....something is seriously wrong with me.
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I've been stuck in my room for almost two days now. Not a word from Justine, it's funny how I always keep hoping even in hopeless situations.  I've been ignoring candy's calls I have zero to no tolerance for her right now. Maria, the housekeeper has been checking up on me constantly and I still don't understand what's the deal with her.

My mum could have moved to the north pole because there haven't seen any signs of her. 

I open my laptop and log into Facebook. Bloody hell! My newsfeed is full of my ex-friends pictures.

Pictures of them partying , fooling around , having fun. There's a picture of Jessica and Alex kissing..What.

Every status I view drowns my spirits, they look so happy and contend with their lives. I used to be part of them. Sure I wasn't happy as them but neither was I this alone. I feel tears trickling down my cheeks.

You will regret this.. 

Alex's word come  uncalled for. I shut the laptop, cover myself with blanket and weep for only God knows how long. Maybe if I didn't exist I wouldn't feel this pain. Maybe there's a way to make it stop. I cry myself to sleep.

"Scarlett!" Am pulled out of my deep sleep by justine's voice.

Justine? I quickly get out of bed to open the door and there he is. Looking as handsome as ever. His scent brings back so many emotions and for once I wish I could forget all the crap that's going on and run into his arms.

But no, my heart is too broken too wounded to overlook.

"What do you want?"

Justin's pov.

I nervously pressed on the doorbell, shifting from foot to foot. A short, chubby middle aged woman dressed in maid's uniform opens the door.

This must be maria. She smile sweetly and stretches her hand to me.