IRREVERSIBLE

CHAPTER 5

Because of  you- Kelly Clarkson

"Feeling any better?" He asks and I look up to him. Justine Zuma? Again? Crap this guy's timing is impeccable. I had completely zoned out. All I could see were images of when timmy had passed away. So many times when I relive these memories I tend to zone out but today I come back and find myself in justine zuma's arms.  His eyes are fixed on trying to decipher what's going on in my head.

"Yeah I guess so. Am sorry." My voice so soft I can barely recognize it.
"What for?"
"Unloading my shit on your shoulders"
"If it helped find solace, the pleasure is all mine."
"Am sorry for earlier too. I didn't mean-"  "it's ok, anyone on defence mode would act he same way" defence mode? His Brown eyes suddenly pique in curiosity.
"Why are you always crying?" He stands up and because he's hovering over me I stand too.  I hate it when people look down on me, even if it's literally.

"Issues......don't we all have them?" Damn how do i evade this topic.
"Yeah, but we don't go wailing at night in the middle of the road...and parking lots." Shit! For how long had he been watching me, did he see my mum throwing me out?

The thought is nauseating."I need to find my car." I turn on my heel and leave.
"Tell me it's colour and number plate, I'll help you find it." He says trying to catch up with me.
"I don't need your fucking help, just leave me alone." I shout hoping that it will make him disappear.
"Why do you always shove me away when you need help the most?" That does it. Who does this good for nothing bodyguard thinks he is. Just because he gave me a ride and a shoulder to cry on, he thinks he owes me?

"Am sorry, did you expect us to be instant bffs well that's never gonna happen. I don't owe you anything so just get back to your lousy job and forget this ever happened! I seethe in anger,"oh and for the record, I don't and will never need your help. I mean seriously, what can a guy like you offer a girl like me with! Don't be ridiculous!" I take advantage of his flummoxed state to walk away. 'Shove me away when you need help the most' I mimic his voice. What a bum!

As I drive back home memories of that evening keep flickering making me cringe every two seconds. What a shitty day it has been. My mum outdid herself tonight and so help me God I'll never forgive her for this. If she wants us as strangers then so be it. Never again will I try to Please her. Somehow I feel bad for ranting on that bodyguard but its not my fault. I was so frustrated I needed an outlet and there he was with his perfect Brown eyes pushing all the wrong buttons at once. He asked for it.

My alarm goes off at nine. I don't feel like getting up but am hungry, I never ate last night. Who would have, with such massive humiliation. I saunter to the kitchen and find my mum having breakfast at the kitchen counter. She's so absorbed in her laptop am sure she didn't notice me....not that she ever does. I head for the fridge and pick a strawberry juice.

"Did someone forget her manners in her sleep?" She says in a bored tone which makes me roll my eyes. "Scarlett I think I raised you better than that!" Oh please raised me? You thought wrong. All I remember are the countless nannies  Who couldn't last more than two months because if her shrewish attitude.

"Good morning aunt." Naomi comes in flipping her hair from side to side and that's my cue to leave.
"At least someone has manners in this house." She says as she pecks naomi's cheeks,  her voice so soft  She barely sounds like the mum I know. I decide to walk out before they make me puke. "Yes aunt, last night was a complete success have you see your Facebook page?" She says completely ignoring my presence and I couldn't care less. I take a pause at the stairs to eavesdrop on their conversation even though I know nothing good could come out of it.

"What's up with her?" Naomi asks.
"Only God knows, don't mind her. You were fabulous last night am so proud of you, and yes  I've seen my Facebook page. It's booming with praises from my fans." My mum gushes like a teenager. "and you earned it my aunt, not even scarlett's stunt could bring you down. What was she thinking anyways?" Naomi laughs "don't mind her, she gets her kicks in creating problems."