Stay Down 2 (Completed)

Chapter 3-Choices

Chris was trying He was And I just had the stankest attitude ever you would Too if You was me in my position

He cooked and cleaned on top of working on his thrid album

I woke up today feeling better and as I promise I went and got me And Ariyah hair down

And getting my hair done really made me feel better when I pulled in the driveway

Chris was outside teaching Cj how to ride his bike we got em for his birthday

Chris is a good father can no one ever take that away from when it comes to Cj And Ariyah He would die for

I got out of my G wagon and opened the back door and Ariyah was passed the hell out

Her hair was so pretty it was braided in to a ponytail with pink and white beads

I unstrapped her from her booster seat and picked up over my shoulder

I closed the car back

Chris stood infront of me And grabbed her from me gently

"Give her here you cant be carrying I don't want you to hurt the baby"He Said

"Her ass knocked out Ima go lay her down"He Said

He took Ariyah in the House

I looked at Cj and said "Hey Pumpkin hows it going"

"Not good"He Said

I smiled and said "It will get better practice makes perfect"

"Do you know how to ride a bike mama?"He Asked me

"Yes I Do And You will Too"I Said

"I can't do it"He Said

"You can And You will watch You'll See"I Said

Than I thought to myself the same way I was encouraging my son should I be encouraging myself

I've been telling myself that I can't be superwomen I can't be pregnant and can't be in school earning my degree

That it's impossible to be a mother wife and successful

But truth is I can because there no such thing as cant

I been wanting the support from my husband but I ain't never needed it

If I gotta do this alone than I'ma do it On My Own

Everything I want is so close I can feel it

I looked at my son and said "It's gonna happen for the both of us I promise you"

Pregnancy was slowing me down but it's wasnt stopping me

This pity party I was having For myself was finally over

I stop feeling bad for myself and started putting work in my self

Over the next week i was superwoman

I was going to school coming home to my kids cleaning and cooking then studying then mommy Time With My Kids after that bath than two books before I tucked them in for bed

Christopher wasn't home most nights he almost never home these days

I didn't even have the time to think about if he was messing around on me or who he was with

I was too busy being superwoman to even notice

Communication didn't even exist between me and him anymore