Stay Down 2 (Completed)

Chapter 9 -The Beauty In The Pain Is Strenght

Things were so bad for me but I was trying to be a good mom be a good student be good person but my heart was in so much pain and I was slowly slipping into depression and no one couldn't save me not even me

Its everyday I wake up where I just feel sad so sad

Shantel was right I was weak I can't even look at myself in the mirror I couldn't even find who I was anyone

My life had completely changed in a matter of two months and I was having such a hard time

Than I get a Visit from my father he walked in and looked around at my house and said "This place is a mess" he was right since I haven't cleant up in days

"well daddy I been going through some things sorry I haven't been in a cleaning mood"I said

"Babygirl its not the end of the world hes just a boy" My father said

I shook my head and said "whatever"

"He is I told you years ago to not marry that boy and did you listen to me no you could've save yourself the heartbreak"He said

"You could've saved my mother the heartbreak if you was messing with that tramp but hey you live and you learn how is Nicole by the way I heard shes sleeping around with a guy thats works for you once a tramp always a tramp"I said angrily

"Hey!"He said

"Whats wrong daddy the truths hurts not as much as deception and lies tho!"I yelled

"I get that your hurt but you can't keep going on like this baby you have got to pull it together!"He said

"Chris is only doing what you did to my mother! I use to listen her cry every night while you were out living your best life with your mistress how dear you !"I yelled

"I never said I was perfect I made a million mistakes but I owned up to them like a man is supposed too"He said

"That doesn't make right now does it !"I said as I folded my arms

"You are not a kid anymore your a grown ass woman its time to start acting like it"He said

"Well atleast I never left my family  I never let my kids down like you did "I said

Cj runs in the room and said "Grandpa what are you doing here"

"Im here to see you"My father said as he quickly puts a smile on his face

"Go get your sister where going to get ice cream"He said to Cj

"Yes your the best grandpa"Cj said as he takes off

than my father said to me "You gonna drown in all that madness and misery"

"if mama managed to survive you than I can sure as hell survive Chris"I said as I stormed off

I was so angry so angry you would be too

Imagine giving up everything to be with someone and one day that person tells you that they want a divorce

And all you did was loved this person you never even thought about betraying this person even though this person has betrayed you countless times

So yes Im mad as hell when I wasn't crying I was
mad at the world

These days I don't know who I am anymore and it's getting worse everyday

Every-time I see Chris and Dani On the gram together how seeing together happy killed my soul every-time

He act like he was never in love with and Im starting to questioning his love I have to ask myself sometimes damn did the nigga ever love me or was it all a lie