Stay Down 2 (Completed)

Chapter 16-Feel No Ways

I hated to leave him like that crying and begging cause that ain't even what Chris does for real but a piece of him was leaving him

He use to always tell me "you apart of me" and I fucking left him on his knees crying like a baby and I got the nerves to say I love him if I had any type of love for the nigga I would never leave him in pain like that

but I do love Chris anyone who knows me knows that I would sacrifice my life for him

but I was trying to see if could find happiness without Chris to see if I could really love a man other than Chris to see what it would be like someone who was wasnt Chris

I guess thats why Im at Quinn door right now

Just standing here

Im really debating and hesitating to even knock on his door because a part of is telling me get back in my car and go see about Chris

he needs and you know he needs you

turning my back on Chris made me feel like I was betraying him and I have never did that before this was the first time I ever turned my back on him

I started crying I wanna move on I want to do this but my heart well my heart I left it with Chris

I was literally fighting with myself about this

what am I doing here I could never love this man like I love Chris

and Thats the moment when I turn around and began going back to my car

I heard the door opened

I turned around and saw Quinn standing there

He opened the door and said "Saw the pictures they eveywhere you looked happy with him"

"I left Chris for good"I said

He looked at the diamond necklace around my neck

"is that real that necklace"He asked

"Does it matter"I asked wiping my face

"How much was it"He asked

"What does that have to do with anything"I asked

"Just tell me"He said

I rolled my eyes "Im not sure"

"l get it Im a police officer Im not some ballin dude who can put expensive things on you or give you luxury things all I can give you is me and loyalty and smiles"He said

"I love you"I said

"What"He said

"I love you Quinn I just needed time to figure out things and I want to be with you"I said

"I love you Adrianna but I can't be with you if you're still in love with Chris"He said

and I stood there and told the biggest lie of life

"Im not in love with him"I lied

Than Quinn looked at me

"I missed you"He said

I smiled and said "Well now you don't have too miss me anymore"

"Please don't make me miss you anymore I want you here"He said

"Im here"I said

I wanted to just forget about Chris but I just keep thinking about him its like the nigga stuck on my brain

Quinn was great he was sweet gentle funny and good to me

this can work I kept telling myself that forcing myself to go through with this