Stay Down 2 (Completed)

Chapter 11-I dont love him,I LOVE him

I drove Chris all the way to the hospital when we got there he lookeda at me and said "You ain't gon come in with me"

"I think you should go in by yourself"I said

He got out the car and I placed my head on to my steering wheel

To process it all

Chris fucking Shantel

Talk about betrayal I was more mad at Shantel more than anything cause she know what chris has put me through she stood there and held me as I cried on her shoulder,my kids even call this bitch Auntie I even had the audacity to call her my friend

I really thought she was my friend and this bitch been fucking the father of my children behind my back smiling in my face acting like she was my friend but the whole stabbing me in my back

Im mad at my myself for even trusting

I kinda expect shit like this from Chris but from Shantel she was the last and I do mean the last person I'll thought would hurt me like I fucking loved  that girl so much

My phone started ringing I looked at it and It was Rico calling

I answered the phone and said "Hello"

"Is everything okay you called me like ten times I
was in a meeting"He said

"I was looking for Chris I thought yall was together"I said

"Nah sis I haven't seen him I talked to him this morning tho is he good?"He asked

"Yeah I found him,he was at studio"I lied

I didn't lie for Chris Or Shantel sake I lied to spare Rico Feelings Rico has been more than great boyfriend and a great friend to them both

and plus the hurt betrayal I was feeling I didn't Want him to experience

"Thats wassup I been so busy with this restaurant I haven't been a good friend lately or a good brother to you and for that I wanna apologized for"He said

"Its fine trust me"I said

than he said "aye sis I love you aight"

"Love you too"I said

I hung up the phone and I looked at myself in the Mirror and I saw tears in my eyes

Sometimes Christopher makes me feel like I regret everything about us Sometimes I wished I never met the nigga If I would've known he would cause me so much misery pain and heartache I would have stay my ass away from him

After all these years and still won't change and Im sick of it its some shit you just don't do like sleeping with my friend thats a different type of hurt

after about a hour of waiting he came back to car crying and I just knew that dede finally pasted

And I just watched him break down in his darkest hour and as much as this nigga has hurt me I can't stand to see him in pain I don't even know why I care but I do

"Chris she loved you she's in a better place now you gotta believe that"I said

"Why her"He sobbed wiping the tears from his face

"Because god was ready for her to come home he saw a pretty flower and picked it"I said

"Adrianna I watched her take her last breath right before she smiled at me"He said

"Shes gone"He cried

I climbed over to him and wrapped my arms his head and looked him in his eyes and said "Its gonna be okay maybe not today maybe not in the morning maybe no time soon but eventually everything will be okay"