Stay Down 2 (Completed)

Chapter 8-Without you

Everyone said this would happen to me  they said he would break my heart and leave me for another woman.But I didn't believe them because we were in love it wasn't perfect but he used to care about me he used to love me.

And then it hit me he doesn't love me anymore and I just can't wrap my head around that I can't. We have been together for so long we been together for seven years two beautiful kids and everything we built we built off love and for him to just turn his back on me was killing me because I never did it to him.

I know we had our problems and our ups and down but I do love Christopher I still love Christopher

I was laying in bed crying my eyes out and Cj stood at my door watching me when I noticed that he was watching me I said "Cj what you doing up"

"Why are you crying mommy," He said as he jumped in bed next to me

And I looked at my son and I couldn't explain to him about what was going on

Not about Dani not about me and Christopher I was completely speechless

"You miss daddy, mommy, its okay he will be back home he always comes back, "He said wiping it tears

But I just knew that in my heart that I and Chris was over I knew that he wasn't ever coming home not after all this

She's having his baby ain't no getting back together now

But I couldn't explain this to my five-year-old son.

"Don't worry mommy you got me and Ari" He said

I smiled and said "That's right"

I was feeling like a complete failure I felt like I had failed my family, my kids, my life and my marriage 

And it was the worst feeling in the world

I'm trying to fight this but it's too much in pain

I don't even sleep at night and I barely eat all I can do is cry

The next morning

I laid in bed next to my son and I see the sun shining and as much as the sun is shining it is still darkness in my world taking over

As I laid there I heard people talking and making a whole bunch of noise

So I got up and gently got out of bed so I wouldn't wake Cj up

I walked out of my bedroom and followed the noise coming from my baby nursey

I opened the door and saw movers taking down my baby stuff and removing them stuff out and shantel standing there

She looked at me and said "Adrianna I'm sorry I didn't mean to wake you its time It been weeks"

"Weeks and I'm still grieving over my dead baby but excuse me you don't seem to care about that so I'll leave you to to tearing down MY DECEASED BABY ROOM DOWN!" I said as I stormed down the stairs and into the kitchen.

Shantel followed me and said "I'm just tryna help Adrianna"

I searched in the cabinet for a bottle of Hennessey or wine I just really need a drink right now

"Whatever", I said

"If you looking for alcohol you won't find it Rico and I threw it all out," She said

I turned and said, "Why I'm not a damn Alcoholic!"I yelled

"Not yet but at the rate you're going you will be looking at you-you looking for a damn drink at 9 in the morning you look like shit your a mess look I know you going through some things but I'm a need you come back to life," She said