Stay Down 2 (Completed)

Chapter 19-Moving Forward Moving Back

So I took his advice and forgave Chris I wanted to forgive and I wanted to be honest about everything feelings and all

It was about 2 in the morning and I was sleeping in a chair holding Ariyah

I opened my eyes and Chris was just standing over Cj just watching him sleep and rico was on the other side of the room sleep snoring loud as hell

"Chris get some rest"I said

"I can't sleep if anything ever happened to him I couldn't live with my self this could've been so bad"He said

"But its not everything is good I was just upset earlier I know that you wouldn't do anything to hurt our kids"I said

"Never"He said

"I know that"I said

Chris picked Ariyah up and laid her next to Cj

I stood up and said "These past two days have been stressful"

"Surprise ya little boyfriend didn't show up"He said

"Of course not....we broke up"I said

and he laughed

"Its not funny"I said

"It is because I knew yall wasn't gon last long a nigga like him could never handle a woman like you"He said

"I tried so hard to love him but I just couldn't"I said

"Why"Chris said

and I just looked at him

"Because I am so in love with you thats why"I admitted

"What"He said as if he was surprise

"you do something to me Chris I can still feel our first kiss when I close my eyes do you remember that kiss that kiss was so pure, so full of life and made me feel like I was on top of the earth nobody can compare to that kiss"I said

"Adrianna why you telling me this"He asked

"I don't know I just wished we could've made it work I wished I was all you needed"I said

"It's never gon work between us lets be real what we had was everything but yo we gotta moved on we keep playing all these fuckin games prolonging this divorce lets just let it go please so we can be free again we never gon be free holding on to eachother like this "He said

"Do you really wanna be freed from me"I asked

"No but I have to be everybody at our wedding said it wouldn't work I wished we would've listened we should've waited Adrianna maybe if we had of we would be somewhere happy instead of In this mess we in"He said

"Don't say that we married eachother because we were in love"I said

"Were in love you know like I know that we don't have that same love no more"He said

"We never fought for it we never gave our marriage a real try because we always filling for Divorce instead of sitting down and dealing with our issues"I said

"I just think we should moved on for once and all"He said

"move on to Valentina"I said

"Nobody said anything about that girl"He said

"than why else would you be acting like this"I said

"Like what the same way you was acting when I wanted you you switched up on me for whole ass nigga remember"He said

"And thats why we never get anywhere because its always tic for tac with you Im done running around in circles with you you wanna be be free Chris I hope she makes you happy"I said putting my jacket on and grabbing my purse