Brought by Fashion [A JaDine FanFic]

Kabanata 29

Try listening to Itatama Pa Ba by Donnalyn Bartolome, Babalik by James Reid, and Let Me Be the One by Jimmy Bondoc. I was listening to that songs while I was writing this chapter. Happy break up!

Kabanata 29

Goodbye

I followed the address that Sam texted me. I parked my car and I noticed that this is an old and abandoned building. At first glance, the place will pass as a location for a horror movie.

Pumasok ako sa loob at wala namang nakitang ano sa unang palapag. The stairs caught my attention and without further adieu, umakyat ako and I saw a silhouette of a man standing near the broken window glass. Sa likod palang nito, kilala ko na kung sino iyon.

It's very funny that no matter how amount of pain that he had caused me, my heart is still beating fast when I saw him.

Only him can give me this kind of feels.

Napahinto ako nung malapit na ako sa kanya. Hinintay ko na humarap siya sa akin at nung lumingon na nga siya, I noticed how wreck his face was. His disheveled hair, blood shot eyes, you can feel that he had no enough rest for the past weeks.

"Love."

He called me and with that, he already cried. Lumapit siya sa akin at hinawakan ang kamay ko. Dumapo ang tingin ko sa kamay niyang mahigpit na nakahawak sa akin bago tumingin sa mga mata niya. Even in the darkness of the place, it was very clear that he's in pain.

Napasinghap ako when I felt the tears that gathered at the sides of my eyes. I need to be strong to be able to do this one. Hindi na pwedeng magpadala ngayon sa emosyon ko.

"I-I'm sorry. I-I'm sorry I wasn't there. I'm really, really sorry, Nadine."

Binitiwan niya ang pagkakahawak sa isang kamay ko at lumipat ito sa tiyan ko. He caressed it gently and I closed my eyes. I let myself feel his touch and how does it feel to be touched by him, again. I want to let myself give into him for the very last time.

Because after this, it will be the end. The end of us.

"What's the use of your sorry James? The damage has been done. You can't bring back what we have lost just by saying those words. You cannot bring back the life of our baby."

Hinawi ko ang kamay niya at napayuko siya habang umiiyak. Hindi ko tuloy alam kung anong dapat na maramdaman sa kanya. All I know is that my decision is now final. I'm breaking up with him.

"I didn't know, Nadine. I didn't know and if only I knew that you were pregnant, I will not fucking leave your side anymore. I thought everything will be fine while I was away with you but-"

"But what James? But you have Erika and you cheated on me? Ano James? Ano ang totoo dahil hindi ko na naiintindihan. You didn't even bother to visit me or atleast hear a word from me. If I was fine if I was doing good. What now James? Ano?"

Lumapit siya sa akin but this time, I didn't gave him the chance to close the distance between us. Umiiling siya habang umiiyak pa rin. Napakagat siya sa ibabang labi niya at napahawak sa buhok niya.

"Nadine I fucking swear, what you saw on the hotel was not what you were thinking. I swear to God Nadine hindi kita kayang lokohin at saktan."

"But you already did, James. Nagawa mo na."

Umiwas ako ng tingin at mabilisang pinunasan ang luha sa mata ko. I don't want him to see me crying. I wanted to look strong para maramdaman niyang kaya ko. Kaya ko na ako lang mag-isa at hindi siya kasama.