Brought by Fashion [A JaDine FanFic]

Kabanata 45

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Kabanata 45

Forever

There are things in life that no matter how hard we try to make it work, it would just not happen. Not because we want it that way, it could actually happen that way.

I learned to love and to be in love with the woman I love the hardest way possible. The whole journey was not easy. Trials, doubts, and uncertainties always coincide while you are in the whole process of being in a relationship.

Communication and trust. Two important essentials that I guess that was lacking in my relationship with Nadine. To be honest, there were times where I took her for granted. There were some point in my life where I thought that she will not leave me because her love for me was big than mine. I thought she will always have the patience to understand every damn issue that my work has to throw at me.

But, everything changed when she left me. Those thoughts eventually made me realize many things. One was that when a person sees his/her worth, no one can ever stop him/her from walking away from your life. That no matter how hard you try to make everything work for the second time around, it would not just happen.

For my case, there are times where I thought Nadine just made the right thing. I thought that was a wise decision to left me without even trying to hear my explanation. Karma right? I took her for granted at some point and now she left me without hearing my side. That what she saw in that goddamn hotel room was not what she thought about.

I tried everything I could just to have her back with me. I traveled the whole fucking world everytime she will have her fashion show or fashion exhibits. Of course, she did not know that every success she gets as a renowned designer, I was there to witness it. Watching her from afar, missing every inch of her was like a big slap for me every single day as I was silently watching and looking after her. It maybe weird or creepy at some point but I settled for that for how many years and that was fine for me. Anyway maybe I deserved that kind of shit.

I quit showbiz and gave up everything I had built for how many years in the industry. The fans of course were disappointed and some even got angry about it. My management did not want me anymore after I did my abrupt announcement through my social media accounts. That time of my life was depressing for me. It felt like no one's supporting me from what I did. Everything felt like it was already a game over for me especially when I heard about the news that Nadine was dating some douchebag. I should not be bitter and jealous coz she's not committed to me anymore. I mean she's free and so she could date someone at this moment.

I followed her, still. But as I was watching her smile and laugh because of that new guy, it broke my heart into crumbs. How ironic that the person that once made you feel loved and happy was already happy with someone else. That night I drank too much hoping the pain would subside but it did not. I was so wasted and no one was there for me. As I went home I cried fucking hard and felt bad about myself. My Nadine already moved on and she's already happy without me.

That was the turning point of me, chasing Nadine. It made me realized that there will be no more second chance for us. Everything already ended a long time ago, the day Nadine left me. And so I already let her go and set her free not because I already gave up or what but because I realized that letting go is sometimes the wise decision we could just give. I love her and so I will set her free.