player | e.d

ten

trinity west

i walk upstairs, my eyes instantly landing on my dad who was reading a newspaper as per usual. "where did ethan go?" i hissed, stomping into the kitchen, "did you seriously tell him to leave?"

my dad sighs and doesn't take his eyes off his god damn newspaper as he answers with a simple no. "like hell he just up and left. what did you say to him dad?" i demand, snatching the newspaper from out of his hands.

he rubs his temples in annoyance, "trinity west, i did not tell him to leave. i asked what he was doing here and he said nothing important and left. did you actually think ethan would have feelings for you? he's been with so many girls, you're not any different."

tears well up in my eyes as my dad raises his voice. i blink them back, telling myself there was no reason for me to cry. "i don't believe you." i say through gritted teeth. my dad shrugs and grabs the newspaper from me before burying his face in it once again.

i roll my eyes. "you're such a great dad." i mumble, but loud enough for my dad to hear. i storm out of the kitchen and grab my car keys, wiping at my eyes as a few tear drops fell from my eyes.

"don't expect me to come home tonight." i shout to my dad and before i can walk out the front door i hear my dad walking towards me. "and who said you could leave the house?" i turn around with a scowl on my face, not in the best mood at the moment.

"i did." i snicker before opening the door and slamming it behind me to let my father know i was upset and didn't want to talk to him. i hop in my jeep and pull out of the driveway, driving towards my best friends house.

she was always the best distraction.
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i get out of the car and lock it, swinging my keys around my finger as i make my way to sierra's front door. i knock on the door softly and wait for someone to answer.

i hear shouting from the other side of the door and smile to myself when i recognize the voice of my best friend. the door swings open and sierra smiles when she sees me and immediately pulls me into her warm arms.

"what's wrong?" it's like she could read my mind and tell something was wrong. "i'll spill the tea later. i just want to hang out and take my mind of things for a while." i whisper and sierra nods understandably after pulling away from our comforting hug.

i follow behind sierra into the living room where her parents were watching football. her dad was on the edge of his seat as he watched the game in anticipation. sierra clears her throat and her mom snaps her head in our direction. her eyes widen when she sees me and she stands up and rushes over to me.

"mae, i haven't seen you in so long!" her mom beamed as she pulled me into a tight quick hug. sierra's family always called me by my middle name mae. "it's been a while." i giggle and pull away from her embrace, only to be immediately pulled into another one but this time by sierra's dad.

"mae! where have you been girlie?" he inquires and i tell him what i've been up to recently. i make small talk with sierra's parents before they said they were going to the store and told us to behave. "we can't promise you that." sierra teases as her parents walk out the front door.

she turns to me when the door shuts and grins sheepishly, "spill all the tea." i laugh softly and rush upstairs to her room and flip down into sierra's soft bed that i loved.

she lands next to me and we both giggle before she turns to lie on her stomach and glares at me, "so what's up?" i sigh and shift into a more comfortable position. "i know you're going to be mad at me, but just listen to me."

she raises her eyebrows in concern as i continue on with a shaky voice. "i fell for ethan dolan, the boy i wasn't supposed to fall for." i squeeze my eyes shut, waiting for sierra to start yelling at me but instead i just hear her start to laugh.

"is this a prank? what's actually going on?" her face falls when i stay silent, hinting that i was being serious. "trini-" i cut her off before she can say anything.

"you don't understand, sierra. he's like nobody else in the world. when i'm with him, it's like i'm split in half. it's like part of me is on fire, going crazy if i'm not with him. the other part of me is calm, peaceful, and just perfectly content knowing he's the one for me. and he has the most adorable eyes you could just get lost in and the cutest smile that melts your heart. he has the ability to make you laugh every time he speaks and whenever i look at him it's so hard to look away. he just has this affect on me and it's driving me insane that he isn't mine and he never will be."

by now the tears are falling down my face. reality had hit me in the face and reminded me that he doesn't truly love me and this all just some messed up game. "oh trinity." sierra coes and wraps me up in her warm arms.

"it'll be okay, once this is over you'll find someone who will be better than ethan and you'll wonder why you ever wanted him in the first place." she whispers. "but i don't want someone else. i want him." i sob and i can hear sierra sniff, causing me to look up at her and see her crying as well.

"why are you crying?" i ask and she wipes at her eyes and shrugs it off. "every time you cry, i cry." i laugh a little, trying to brighten up the mood even though i was breaking inside. "thanks for letting me rant." i finally whisper after a minute of silent and sierra nods, reminding me that she'll always be here for me.
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i woke up to the sound of sierra's alarm clock going off and i groan, sitting up and rubbing my eyes. sierra was already in her bathroom getting ready for school. i dreaded seeing ethan today.

i throw on a white thrasher shirt that was tied in the front to make it more tight and some distressed mom jeans with some white vans and do my makeup in sierra's room.

"you ready?" sierra yells from her bathroom and i yell back a quick yeah before i grab my backpack and rush down the stairs and grab my car keys and walk out to the car and we drive off to school. "i meant are you ready to see ethan?" sierra clears up and i sigh, shaking my head.

"i have to be."
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this was rushed eW but happy new year😌💖