player | e.d

twenty eight

trinity west

it's 11 pm and i'm laying down on my bed, scrolling through instagram and seeing pictures of ethan during the football game, made me realize just how much i missed him.

i regret everything.

if i could take back that day and just let ethan explain, i would've. he hasn't tried texting me at all. not a single call either. we make unintentional eye contact in the hallways and in class but i can't ever feel the connection anymore.

everyone knows somethings up because ethan's been acting out of control. like this morning he showed up in first period drunk off his ass. grayson told me it's even worse at home. i was surprised he hasn't been kicked off the football team yet.

he needed me.

i knew that.

but he didn't want me.

if he did, he would call.

but he never does.

i roll over in bed and let out a deep sigh. i needed to fix this.

i grab my car keys from off my dresser and shuffle lazily out of my bed. each step i took made my feet ache, due to me not getting out of bed since i got home from school.

i quietly sneak out through my window since my parents were watching tv upstairs and i was currently grounded for lashing out at my parents. i didn't mean to be so cruel to them but all my emotions had been bottled up and i just needed to relieve some anger.

a few raindrops fall from the sky and i cross my arms, sitting in my jeep, as i wait for it to warm up.

i eventually back out of the driveway and start driving. where to? i had no idea. i would make up my mind soon enough.
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i ended up parking down the street from sierra's house. my heart was racing, knowing the football players would be driving down this road any minute. the reasoning behind me parking where i did.

i decided i wanted to hear sierra's explanation. she was my best friend after all and i wasn't just going to throw away our life-long friendship over someone i've only known for a few months.

i honestly was still lost on who i should believe or not.

as i'm walking i hear two familiar voices talking in hushed voices. i bend down and scurry along the bushes, listening in the conversation.

"got it?" i hear lillian ask and i inch closer in order to hear more clearly. "yeah, so tomorrow i'll act sick during lunch and then once trinity asks what's wrong that's when i'll tell her that i went in and found out i'm pregnant." sierra then explains and my jaw drops.

a few cars pass by and i try to make myself less visible by moving closer into the bush without making any noise. "what if she doesn't believe me when i say that it's ethan's baby and she wants a dna test? i'm not actually pregnant i can't get a dna test done." sierra continues with an anxious tone.

my eyes glisten with tears threatening to spill at any given moment.

"then you'd better hope she believes you and it's a good enough reason for them to stay broken up." lillian scoffs at the stupid question. i struggle to catch my breath as i quickly, but quietly, ran back to my car.