Living in my head

Entry 3:

Thursday 23rd August 1:41

Hola,
How is everyone today? Hopefully better me. It's early morning, I'm wide awake and I feel like shit. Last night I was throwing up in the toilet till 5:30 so I've been sleeping all day today to try and get rid of the stomach bug and now I can't sleep again. That's also why I haven't really had a choncé to update.

Today I literally did nothing but sleep. All I've had to eat is a banana and I'm dehydrated as fuck.

I've actually been in contact with some of my friends recently, which I know, shocker! But we agreed on the fact that all holidays all we've done is sleep and watch series and we aren't even annoyed. Like we just can't be arsed socialising. We both hate the rest of our friends and are sick of looking like mugs constantly cos all people do it use us. It's not fun.

The majority of my friends have a really false perception of school. They expect us all to stay friends forever and make a massive, memorable entrance to the new school year. News flash! It ain't gonna happen. I don't like half of them so I'm definitely not staying friends with them and this isn't mean girls and we aren't the plastics so when we go back to school, shits gonna be exactly the same.

(Side note: my stomachs making some dodgy noises right now and I'm really scared. Pray for me.)

This entry is boring af cos I really don't know what to say like my life's boring af too and I'm really not feeling very charismatic at the moment so I can't make jokes. I'm sinking back into my empty, auto pilot mode so it's like everything has a depressing grey film over it.

I found a song the other day that really relates to how I'm feeling which I will put at the top of my entry. Musics a really massive part of my life. My dads very passionate about music and I've really inherited that, when I've got no way of describing how I feel, I find a song or some lyrics. If I'm stressed, I go to music. If I'm happy, I go to music. Sad, music. Angry, music. It's my answer to everything. So make sure to listen to it and specifically pay attention to the lyrics not the sound. Let me know if you like the song thing and I can try and do one each entry.

Sorry this entry is pretty boring, just wait till I start school again, shits gonna hit the fan.

Hope you enjoyed,
All the love,
L x