Living in my head

Entry 4:

Friday 24th August 18:41

Life is shit.

Being alive is like being forced to watch the same old documentary over and over again every day. Each day it gets more boring and frustrating, each day it will get worse and each day new little crappy, unnecessary details will catch your eye but will never be of any relevance.

I'm sick of stuff just going wrong.

We've reached the point in the school year where everything's about to fall apart.

Excuse me while I continuously bang my head against the wall.

As we go into the new year, my friend ship group is on the brink of falling apart, therefore, we have reached recruitment time. All of my friends suck up desperately to the people they want to stay friends with and the people they feel will be useful in the next year. Apparently I am not one of those people.

My friends fight like rabid animals chasing after meat while I am tossed aside like a manky old bone. I'm the push over. They don't need to fight for my friendship because they know I'll always be there, just in the background in case I'm wanted, waiting to be walked all over.

I'm a zebra crossing.

I'm only used when they need it.

Well that's what they think.

I'm not like that and in the new year when they come back to me to try and use me and I'm not there for them then they'll know they fucked up.

Actually, truth is, I'll probably be right there waiting because I can't be arsed finding new friends. I don't like myself so why would anyone like me, Ya know?

Sorry this updates so depressing but hey, that's me!

I'm just gonna write a random sentence to get my word count up.

See you next time.

All the love,
L x

(Couldn't find a song for this entry sorry. If u have any recommendations that fit comment.)