Living in my head

Entry 5:

Saturday 25th August 16:58

Hello, I'm back a bit earlier than my usual update per request (I know! Someone actually want to read this, Im as surprised as you are). Anyway, I'm actually gonna be hitting you all with how I see my first day back at school going as apparently someone wants to hear that.

Before I was writing this I was actually rocking out to a bit of old 1D which doesn't really compliment my whole "sad af" brand so cue the depressing playlist and I'll get started.

Never mind I've got a Spotify ad, I'll get started in 30 seconds.

There we go.

~now playing - invisible, 5sos~

So school is shit. What is enjoyable about being trapped in boring, horrible class rooms, with boring, horrible students, learning about boring, horrible bull shit? Exactly, nothing.
So my first day of school of school is going to be far from enjoyable.

I'll spend all morning getting ready; making my hair look nice, checking my uniforms perfect to arrive and immediately become invisible. I'll wall the short distance from my house to school with my "friends" and in other words the only people I can tolerate that live near to me, (and fyi tolerate is a strong word).

When we arrive I'll go meet my slightly more tolerable friends and stand in silence while they talk happily amongst themselves, I do not enjoy socialising, until registration.

In registration, I'll probably be forced to sit next to my ex boyfriend throughout that year long 10 minutes which I had to suffer through all of last year too. I'll receive my my new timetable which, trusting my luck, will have no lessons with anyone I know on it leading me to spend each period sat alone in silence.

When lunch swings around I'll meet a friend at form and head out to town. We'll talk about how shitty school has been while eating some flavourless sandwich from the co op and return back to school wearing the same bored expressions we've been wearing all day.

I'll finish the day staring at the wall alone until the final bell, then I'll probably walk home alone because I'm too lazy to wait for anyone to walk with, then I'll arrive home and lock myself in my room, you guessed it, alone! And I'll listen to my sad playlist and cry because I'll realise that I have to go back to that hell hole tomorrow and the next day for a whole year.

The end

So if you haven't gathered, my opinion on school I highly negative (my option on most things is) so that leads my to expect a pretty crappy experience and it normally is. All people care about is boys, sex and popularity. There's no fun in any of it. Where you are on the social ladder decides everything for you; whether your nice, whether your pretty, whether you're friendly, literally everything. However, I'm not like that. While people try desperately to climb higher and higher on that dreadful ladder, I'll be in the background, with my headphones in, watching the clock and counting down until this is all over.

So, one more time before I'm going to go, school is shit. I tend to have that as my running mantra while I'm at school,  you can try it if you like, it's great if you want to become a sad ass teenager.

I hope you enjoyed this, I'm not sure how you could but technically you asked for it soooooo....

I'll see you next time
All the love
L x