South Park Butters X Kenny

10

I look around the room and see Kenny and Butters walk down the stairs. Kenny goes into the kitchen but Butters sits down on the couch. He's finally alone. I want to go over to him but I'm not sure it's a good idea. Fuck it, I'm gonna go for it.

"Hey.." I say. I wasn't expecting to be talking to him again so soon.

"Hi." He replies.

"Thanks for texting me yesterday. It made me feel a bit better." I smile.

"No problem." He smiles back. I can feel a huge knot in my stomach. "I never meant to hurt you."

"I know that. You never did anything to hurt me." I say quietly. "Could we talk a bit? In private?"

"Uh, sure. We can step outside for a moment." He suggests. We stand up and walk outside. It was really cold.
I take a moment to just look at him. I sigh. I don't know if I can do this. I've been into people before but with Butters it was something different. We were together for so long and I've never loved anyone as much as I loved him. As much as I still love him. It hurts. I've seen how he looks at Kenny. He used to look at me like that. I feel my eyes tear up.

"Uhm.. I'm not sure how to say this." I say as I look away from him. I can't do this while looking at him.

"What?" He asks. I can hear the curiousity in his voice. It makes his voice sound even cuter. It's kind of killing me

"I've been wondering what made you break up with me and these last couple of weeks I've really been reflecting a lot on our last weeks together." I say and I can feel a tear run down my cheek. "I've started to notice how much you look at Kenny and I just realized that you've been doing it since we were dating."

"Oh, Kyle, n-no wha-"

"Please don't try to spare my feelings. I'm not a kid anymore, you aren't either. I just need to hear..."

"H-hear what?" Butters asks, his voice shaky, probably because of the cold.

"Just tell me you don't love me anymore. I feel like if I hear you say it instead of some stupid excuses I'll maybe move on. I can't keep holding on to the hope of getting you back. Just say it.." I try my best to hold back the tears. It isn't working too well.

"I.." Butters hesitated. "I don't love you anymore, Kyle."
He said it. Somehow it doesn't make me feel any better.

"Okay. Thank you." I sit down in the snow with my back against the wall. "I'd like to be alone now."

"Of course." Butters says quietly and goes back inside.
I put my hands over my eyes and let the tears flow down. I don't think I've ever felt like my heart's been literally ripped in half, but now I do. And it fucking hurts.