Broken || Ashton Irwin

Chapter 10

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"Charlie, have you been crying? What's wrong?" Calum asked, his face showed that he was genuinely concerned. He took a seat beside me and wrapped one arm round me planting a kiss on my head and rubbing my shoulder gently.

"I'm okay honestly." I gulped. Even though I wasn't, I'd messed everything up. The only real friendship I had was now broken. I was a stupid naive idiot, and this time things weren't going to just sort themselves out.

"What's happened?" He pouted. I ignored him, playing with the hem of my dress, it's not that I didn't want to talk to him, I just didn't really know what had happened. Everything seemed to happen so fast, I just needed time to think everything through and to sort out what I was going to do.

I couldn't have Michael and Ashton. I knew that, but right now I didn't know what was more important.

"Look, I know we don't really know each other that well." He started, "but you're clearly upset, and I hate it when people aren't smiling." He sighed.

I smiled at him.

"See I'm smiling." I chuckled slightly, although it was followed by a hiccup as I was still trying to stop myself from crying.

"That's a fake smile, if I ever did see one," he winked, tapping my leg softly.

"Fake smiles are good," I sighed, "then people don't really know how you feel." I muttered, not tears appearing in my eyes again.

"How do you really feel then?" he whispered, turning my head gently so that I was looking him in the eyes.

I sighed.

"I, I don't know." I stuttered. "Do you ever just feel like you've lost everyone?" I breathed, trying hard to not let myself start crying again.

His eyes looked sad, and he nodded at me, biting his lip slightly.

He ran one hand through his hair, messing it up a bit. "I know exactly how you feel." He sighed.

"I've messed everything up." I snuffled, shaking my head.

"You can tell me," he nodded, signalling me to carry on.

"Well me and Michael have fallen out, and it's all my fault." I started. "It's me who caused it all."

"I'm sure you're not all to blame." he said comfortingly wrapping his arm tighter round my shoulder.

"No, it is. I lied to him, I said I was going to stay away from Ashton, and I didn't." I said, tears now rolling down my cheeks. "I didn't stay away from him at all, I made out with him just this morning. I told my friends I was ill when really I was sat right on this bench, with him." I partially laughed through the tears, at how ridiculous the situation was.

"You shouldn't have to lie to them, so what if you're with Ashton. I mean yeah he's a bit different, but who cares?" He said, rubbing my arm slowly. "Don't feel bad about it, it's cool."

"But I lied to him and I promised I would stay away from Ashton, I broke my promise." I hiccuped, wiping the tears from my cheeks.

"Some promises are just too hard to keep, they're just a means to an end," he paused, clearly thinking about what he was going to say next. "Maybe Ashton isn't the best guy on the plant but only you know what's best for you." He smiled.

I snuffled slightly, pausing to think for a moment.

"Thanks Calum." I smiled, leaning in for a hug.

He rubbed his hand in circles around my back.

"I promise things will all work out," he whispered into my ear, and then pulled out of the hug.