poetry

loneliness will be the death of me, just watch

i stayed up talking to you until 5am
because i thought you liked me
i was never in love with you
i never even really liked you
but i didn't think you would do this.

i didn't think you'd block me on everything
because i told you who i was
i didn't think you'd treat me like this
for something that doesn't even affect you
my life is not yours to control.

i didn't think it would hurt this much.

i am not hurting because you in particular wronged me
i would not be that hung up
over someone i knew for only a week
who i exclusively spoke to online
in the early hours of the morning
no,
i am hurting because i never knew what it was like to feel different
until you told me i was sinning
and called me disgusting
and i suddenly understood just how painful isolation can be.

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a/n: thank you millions for 2k reads!! this means so much to me, i appreciate you all so much <3

this poem is based on personal experience, i said in my announcements i would be writing this based on a cruel person i recently encountered and i only just finished it off :) hope you like it x