69 days to fall inlove

chapter 15 : its time to change *O*

chapter 15 : its time to change *O*

 ** JiYeon of t-ara will be the imaginary character of Krisha Rui , see picture --> **

(shane's pov)

umalis na si via, nagpasama ako sakanya para umuwi sa bahay namin. gusto kong makita si mama.. nmimiss ko na siya. it was hard. nahihirapan na ako. dati isa lang akong fan ng isang artista tapos one day , eto na. kasama ko na siya sa bahay at nasasaktan, umasa kasi ako na ako naman yung mamahalin niya, na kakalimutan niya naman yung dati tas isusubstitute niya ako. pero mali.....

nung nasa bahay na ako, which is located at quezon city, umakyat kaagad ako ng kwarto ko. binuksan ko yung ipad ko at nagpatugtog ako...... 

someday:nina

Someday you'll gonna realize 

One day you'll see through my eyes 

But then i won't even be there 

I'll be happy somewhere 

Even if i can't 

i felt chills. i felt pain..... i told myself "bakit hindi nalang ako ?"..."bakit siya pa"

I know 

You dont really see my worth 

You think your the last guy on earth 

Well i've got news for you 

I know i'm not that strong 

But it won't take long 

Won't take long 

Coz someday, someone's gonna love me 

The way, i want you to need me 

Someday, someone's gonna take your place 

One day i'll forget about you 

You'll see, i won't even miss you 

Someday, someday 

someday.. hindi na kita hahabulin .. someday you'll run after me and you'll regret losing me...

But now 

I know you can't tell 

I'm down,and i'm not down anyway 

But one day these tears 

They will all run dry 

I won't have to cry 

Sweet goodbye 

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sweet goodbye... yeah, one day i'll be ble to smile and tell him goodbye... nakatulog na ako at sisiguraduhin kong pag-gising ko... iba nang shane yung makikilala niya

***one week after, eksena sa school***

voice 1: OMG IS THAT THE SUMMER COLLECTION OF PRADA SHADES ? LIMITED EDITION YAN EH.. KYAAAAAA >______<

voice2: i love her curls, where did she get that ? envy her!!

voice3: OMYGEEE! THOSE SHOES ARE TO DIE FOR. is that from 9west or louboutin 

voice 3: her perfume is relly nice.. i smelled it elsewhere though.... FUCK! its the precious imperial majesty of clive christian. omg.. want those , we should be friends with her.

voice6: and her make up is so elegant.. i wonder what its brand.

voice5: is she a transferee ?

voice6:why the hell ru asking me, i dont evenknow her as well. like duh.

gossip everywehere. you heard it right, i change myself... i'm the new shane bianca madrigal. they're stating the fact.. dumiretso na ako sa clssroom one week kong hindi nakita si jiro. habang hindi ko siya nakit nung isang linggong yun sinigurado kong maglalaway siya pag nakita niya ako.. 

i can say. i physically change, nag-ayos ako na hindi ko naman to ginagawa dati. but that doesnt mean na pati si jiro napalitan na sa puso ko......

is that even possible ? 

nalungkot ako sa naisip ko. para naman kasing totoo eh...

i headed towards the door akala ko si jiro yung magugulat pero... AKO pala yung ngulat. i saw him talking to krisha all lovey-dovey he didnt text me.. wala manlang hi-hello na text is he not even concern about my health ? ughh, wala naman kasing pakialam sakin eh. what do i  expect from him.... 

i came back, with my heart half mended but by seeing only this... ewanko.. para saan pa yung pagbabago ko kung wala na pala akong babalikan... i lost. i lost without even fighting.

i compose myself as i walk towards them... nanginginig na yung luha ko at anytime tutulo na ito.. but then i tried to smile  as hard as i can... 

pabigat na ng pabigat yung  footsteps ko ..  pinipigilan na ata ako ng gravity para lumapit sakanila... pati ba naman gravity boto sakanila ? and after 4567876763years napansin nila na andito na ako.. naktingin lang sila saakin... they left me no choice...

 tanagina.... i said to myself..... hirap na hirap na ako....

"g..goodmorning" i smiled defeatedly.

"hello shane , you look stunning" -krisha

"thank y.." tatapusin ko palang yung sasabihin ko nang.... 

"not at all, " -jiro

CRAP.

nung tutulo na yung luha ko biglang may humatak sakin gaing sa likod. ihiniharap niya ako sa dibdib niya... sa bilis ng pangyayari nakilala ko kaagad siya... 

si jake...

nakangiti siya.... nararamdaman ko yung tibok ng puso niya... he whispered something... something that made me cry even more....

"if you want to cry call me.... make it sure that you're not infront of them..."

tumango nalang ako. tama naman siya eh. 

"tara cut tayo" and with that pakirmdam ko iniligtas ko ng knight in shining armor ko...... life is ironic... kung sino pa yung dahilan ng pag-iyak mo dati eh siya ngayon tong sumasagip sayo sa kalungkutan dulot ng ibang tao.....

tumingin ako sakanya "huh ? saan ? " i looked puzzled.

"basta!!" hinatak niya ako palabas ng building namin we went through the gate, he wants to make me feel better i guess... 

lahat ng tao nakatingin samin.... as if we are stars on tv. ganon ba kasikat si jake ? i've seen reporters around him but i never thought he would be this popular...

tumingin ako kay jake. tumatawa siya... to my curiosity tinnong ko siya.

"bat ka tumtawa ?"

"ang daming tumitingin oh."

"ou nga eh. sikat ka pala jake di halata," haha, in this short time, i feel better.

"sus. ang ganda mo kasi.. pinagtitinginan tuloy tayo"

HUH?! MAMBOBOLA NAMAN TO! 

"tss."

pumasok kami sa isang candy shop. ofcourse alam ni jake na andun ang faavorite kong cotton candy . ngumiti lang ako sakanya..."alam parin pla niya" i murmured

umorder siya ng cotton candy at maraming candies. eto kasi comfort food ko. buti nlang hindi ako tumtaba.

paglabas namin ng candy shop, tumigil siya , nagulat ako nang may tatlong lalaki palang sumusunod smin kanina pa........

"pre. ice cream ba tong kasama ko ? "

HUH ? o___O ICE CREAM ?