and in the end, I'd do it all again [Moxiety]

Chapter 26 ~ Over The Moon

He's read my message, he hasn't replied.  I refresh my messages with one hand as I brush my teeth, scowling before I spit into the sink.  Why did I think it was a good idea?  He's ignoring me.  Or maybe he's just shocked, taken aback at my bold move, doesn't know how to respond... or maybe he simply just hates me.  I throw the phone on the bed as I re enter the bedroom, groaning loudly with both hands in my hair.  Dammit, I've made it worse.  I'm so angry at myself, how could I have been so stupid?  I leave the phone in the bedroom and storm down the stairs.  I don't wanna look at it.  Look at the constant reminders of my rejection.  Ugh. 
I decide that I'm gonna go outside today.  I'll take a walk, enjoy the fresh air, clear my head, calm down a bit.  It's getting too much, the same thing every day, the TV, the couch, Logan.  He's already said he's not coming over today, which I'm relieved by, and I've realise that there is one more friend that I have to talk to.

"Virgil!" Doris cries as I enter the bakery.  She immediately rounds the counter, giving me a huge smile and a big hug.  "What can I do for my favourite customer today then?!"  She says enthusiastically, tapping me on the nose, I smile weakly at her, and then she realises that something's up.  "Oh, honey, are you ok?"  She says, I shake my head.  She leads me to a little table by the wall of the small bakery, and gestures for me to sit down, before walking over to the door and flipping the sign round to display 'closed'.
"I threw the party for my boyfriend, everything was going great"  I sigh and look down at the table. "And I'm in the kitchen with one of my friends, and out of nowhere he kisses me!"  Doris holds my hands between hers in the middle of the table, looking at me sympathetically.  "I got all upset and stressed about it, and I broke a mirror, and I ended up telling Patton.  He got mad, Doris, said that he feels we've lost the trust in our relationship, and that even though it meant nothing, I still should've told him sooner"  I look back up at her, her soothing eyes and concerned expression.  "He went back to his old house. I haven't seen him since, it's been two weeks, Doris, two weeks, and because we were supposed to move in together, so he's selling his house, and now he needs to leave and has nowhere to go.."  I finish my story, she nods slowly.
"Oh honey, that's awful..."  She starts.  "Have you tried to contact him?"
"Yes, I texted him.  He read it and didn't reply.  I'm not surprised really" I respond.
"He still might!" Doris says hopefully, I give her a half smile.  "Really, Virgil.  I have a feeling, you're both so in love, I think it's all gonna be fine." She says.  I almost believe her.  I want to believe her.  I think I do a bit.   "Seriously, go to him, do anything, don't run away.  Being ignored is better than not trying at all, otherwise, you never really know how things will turn out.."  I believe her now.  I makes sense.   How does she do it?!  I thank her, hugging her again before leaving the bakery and heading home.  I'm not losing him.  One way or another, I'm getting Patton back.

When I get home, I head to my room where my phone is still resting on the bed.  I pick it up and quickly open my messages.  The same again.  No reply.  I sigh.  Wait.  One voicemail.  I play the voicemail quicker than I've done anything in my life.

"Virgil..."  I hear.  Oh my god.  My name sounds so sweet in his voice.  The voice I've been longing to hear.  "Thank you so much for the message.  I miss you too, we really need to talk.  These two weeks have been so difficult.  I've just been too scared to call.   Ring me back as soon as you can.  Goodbye"  The last word is a mere whisper.  I feel myself shuddering.  I can't call him right now, I'm too nervous and shaken up.  He misses me.  I'm over the moon.  I make a mental note to call him in the morning, and I can't wipe off my stupid smile for the rest of the day.