jellyfish hearts

scared

i'm scared of starting something new
of departing from my comfort zone
that i once never even knew

how does one go
from living life with no limits
to lying in bed day and night

with a tear drop waiting to spill

how did i fall so far
from God's glory into
utter darkness?

i have been cast off
set aside with the remnant men
on this sinking ship

there is no dragged out love story
only a brief moment of holding on
and then endless falling
again, into darkness

until reality hits
like a frozen cold fucking brick
on my titanic ship