jellyfish hearts

vomit

it's too hot
I ate too much
I'm growing dizzy
"where's the drinking fountain again?"
my cuts are bleeding
they'll know
can't let them see
everything's growing blurry
glowing stars
roller coaster rides
"why are you wearing jeans? it's summer, it's hot"
eye rolls
gossip
lies
flattery
rejection,
it stings
it stinks...
I'm cutting my hair
in the bathroom
mom and dad won't agree
that I'm still pretty
anxiety drains me
it kills me
inside
I can't take it anymore
physically not emotionally
and so
I vomit it all up
the stress pain and sadness
and fill my void again with food
and then I repeated the process!.