jellyfish hearts

how long

how long
until you hear my name
echoing on the wind
asking for someone to help me

how long
until you realize
that okay is not good enough
it simply is not good enough for me

how long
because
i need to know
i want to know

how long
have you been distant from me
not when i cut you off
but when you decided to leave

how long
until you decide
not to lie this time
and laugh it off

how long
until i realize
that i have had enough
and can move on happily?

how long
until i recognize
that it's okay
to feel this way

how long
until i except myself
for who i am
and love this person inside of me

how long
will it take me
to believe the words i'm saying
from years of pain and suffering

how long
until i learn to love myself
that inner voice
the truth that roars like a lion within me

how long
until i've had enough
and realize
that you don't

love me

for
me