Because I Had You

12

Camila's POV

Song: Say You Won't Let go by James Arthur with Camila Cabello.

Okay, so like the facts written in here are probably wrong, like you probably can't go to the Eiffel Tower at like one in the morning. Lmao I lowkey hate this chapter but. Read anyways!

Shawn and I left the hotel without telling anyone, hopefully nobody would come looking for us. We were just walking around the streets since it was pretty close to the hotel.

There was actually a couple of people out. I was guessing they went out and had fun, who else would be walking in the streets of Paris at this time? "You know, I wish we did this in the morning so we can actually go into the cute little shops" I said pouting a bit. "We can go in the morning" Shawn answered.

"Really?" I asked excitedly "yeah" he answered laughing. "Have I told you that I love you?" I asked him "a couple of times I think" he replied laughing. "Say it back at least gosh" I said rolling my eyes.

We were starting to get closer to the tower, it looked amazing! The tower was covered in lights, it looked better at nice. "Look how beautiful!" I said turning towards Shawn, there was actually a few people outside looking at the Eiffel Tower. It was definitely less busy at night.

"Do you think we can go up?" I asked Shawn "I don't know, let's find out" he said grabbing my hand and walking over.

I felt kind of weird, here I was holding another boy's hand when I just got out of a relationship. But at the same time I didn't care, who cares if anyone saw me holding hands with Shawn. I'm single, I'm an adult I can do whatever I want.

"Am I really in front of the Eiffel Tower?" I asked "if I'm dreaming please don't wake me up" I spoke breathlessly as I stared at the structure in front of me. I could actually reach out and touch it, which I actually did because I didn't believe it.

"Well, you're not dreaming"Shawn says "come on" he said taking my head "don't you need tickets or something to go up?" I asked "I've got that covered" he replied I followed Shawn to the lift, I don't think anyone would want to walk up all those stairs. There was definitely over a thousand of them.

"Look at the view from up here!" I shouted walking up to the railing, I placed my hands on the railing slightly leaning over looking down. I would usually be afraid to be up here, but it was worth it.

Shawn stood behind me looking at the view "thank you for taking me here!" I said turning around and wrapping my arms around him. He didn't say anything he just wrapped him arms around me. "I wanna stay in Paris forever" I mumbled my head rested against Shawn's chest.

"You can just stay here" Shawn said I slightly back away and rolling my eyes at him. "Haha, you're not going anywhere without me" I tell him "oh really?" He asked "you can get rid of me that easily" I answered. "Damn, I tried" he replied, I rolled my eyes walking away from him.

I let out a small sigh looking out to the city, the lights made everything look beautiful. "I want to get married here" I said "or maybe a trip to Paris for my honeymoon" I added looking around. "First you need to find a boyfriend" Shawn said jokingly "I had one" I replied.

"Oh shit, Camila, you know I didn't mean that" he said "I know" I said looking away. Soon the pain in my chest returned just thinking about it. "Shawn, why does everyone leave me?" I asked "what's wrong with me?" "Camila, there's nothing wrong with you" Shawn tells me grabbing my hand and making me look at him.

"You're only saying that because your my friend" I say to him avoiding eye contact with him. This is definitely not how I wanted his trip to go, crying over someone who broke my heart. "No, I mean it" he says "then why don't people stay? Why don't people love me?" I asked, Finn told me he loved me, but obviously he didn't.