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t h i r t y - s e v e n

She sighed, her breath turning foggy because of the cold atmosphere surrounding her. She looked around as she was sat on a bench, on the little balcony of theirs. It sure it was a nice day, despite the freezing temperature outdoors.

As she scanned the surroundings, questions and thoughts had took over her mind.

That time is coming nearer and nearer day by day as time passes. She's getting weaker each minute she breathes. And infinite questions had been haunting her recently.

What will happen if I pass away? What will happen to everything? Would dad still be thinking of me? Would Seungcheol still be in his cheerful state? Would Yoongi ever have that beautiful gummy smile plastered on his face? Would it affect everyone? Would I hurt everyone once again, like how I thought I always had?

She looked down. Surely, her death would affect everyone close to her. The boys. Her mom. Seungcheol. And most importantly,

Yoongi.

She had promised to try to live for him, the guy she loves the most. But what's happening? There's a thought inside her, telling her to just die in peace, and there's a thought telling her otherwise. She has to be there for Yoongi. Especially that she knows that the guy is suicidal. She just hopes for the best.

Though she wants to live with Yoongi, as said multiple times, the treatment wouldn't affect her and her sickness at all, because it was already too strong to be fully treated. But on the other hand, it was an advantage for her. Because she'd get to see her mom.

But isn't that being selfish of me at all? She asked herself. She wants to die because of her mother. But what about Yoongi? What about him? How will he be able to handle her death?

As she had looked down, she closed her eyes and tears had fallen from her brown eyes. She sighed and looked up, curving her lips into a sad smile while she wiped away her tears. I need to be happy. I need to smile. I don't have to let anyone see that I am this weak. I can handle this, just a few more days and I'm free.

As she was staring at the view, she felt a pair of arms wrapping around her neck (not in a way of suffocating her.) and she felt safe. She knew who the owner of these arms was, and she smiled even more.

"Yoongi-ah."

Her eyes glistened once more. She looked up, hoping that her tears won't fall down. "Why are you crying, princess?" He asked.

She chuckled and sniffed. "I'm not crying, Yoon." She sighed. "I'm just a little tired. That's all."

"You don't need to lie to me, baby. Tell me what's wrong. I'll help you. Are you feeling okay? Does your stomach hurt? Or does your head hurt? Do you want to throw up?" He asked. "I'll stand you up if you need to. Just tell me what's wrong. I'm here."

She shook her head. "It's nothing much, Yoongi. It's just that- It's just that so many things are going on in my mind now."

He let go of the hug and sat beside her. He patted his shoulder, signalling her to rest her head on his shoulder. She did so.

"Are you scared?" He said in a low tone.

She slowly nodded. "Kind . . . of."

"I'll be here whenever you're in pain. Tell me everything that's going on in your head now, it's my time to cheer you up."

"Okay." She retorted, her voice all tired. "Yoongi, what if I leave everything behind, I'd end up hurting the people I love and slowly kill them, too?"

"What do you mean?"

"You know, they might kill theirselves just to be with me, like what I was about to do just to be with mom." She said. "What if they all one by one leave? . . . Including you?"

He put his hand over her shoulders. "I won't do that if you don't want me to. I'm telling the other boys too, if you want. But don't ever think of that. Okay?"

She nodded.

He felt the shoulder part of his shirt get wet. He immediately stood up and knelt down in front of her, holding both of her shoulders and sitting her up. Her face — it was all pale, and it looked very exhausted. The tears that were staining her cheeks didn't make it any better.

He put his other hand up her cheeks, wiping away the tears. It breaks his heart seeing the girl suffer like this. "Don't cry, princess. Don't worry about any of us. Okay?"

"Yoongi, Yoon—"

"Shh." He hugged her. "I'm right here."

"I love you so much. I love you so so so much , Yoongi-ah."

He placed a kiss on her forehead, on her cheek, on her noses, and finally, on her lips.

"I love you even more."

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early morning update just because. this phone's so laggy it's pissing me off

things haven't been going well for me ksjksjsk hOW CAN JUNGOO INJURE HIS HEEL AND YOONGI TAKE A BREAK FROM BV AT THE SAME DAY jkjk i love them i hope things are going well for them. to our baby jungkook (tho he's years older than me), i hope u understand that u need to rest, it's for the best (wow that rhymes), we'll love u no matter what, and to yoon, my ult bias, my love, please be strong whatever the issue is. we, armys are here for u :((

and also i hate my ex crush sm. lmao ksjskj just in case u see this why are u still reading ??

i'm seriously going crazy. ily guys sm please have the rest y'all deserve. thank u for reading and don't forget to vote!! don't forget to smile, too!!