The words I couldn't tell you

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Authors note** Hi, I just wanted to tell you that my name is Alexis and I hope you enjoy reading my inner thoughts and feelings.**
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Intelligent, manipulative, and beautiful. Those are the words I'd use to describe her. She's a master of pretending and the queen of misleading.
She was warm to the touch, kind as could be, bright as sunshine but her heart was cold as ice. Her words as venomous as a snake, her actions unreliable, her lies as clear as black.
She'll kill you with one look, one glance, one wink.
She out smarted them all, those who fell for her.
Never looking for permanent, she finds comfort in temporary where feelings don't last.
Showing no signs of remorse, no signs of regret, no signs of love.
Showing signs of anything for anyone but me, signs of changing, signs of mixed signals, signs of misleading, signs of pretending.
Never wanting me. She always wanted someone else, someone who could give her everything.
But she was scared, scared of love and what it could do to her, scared of loss and the pain of it, scared of following what she wants in fear of being unaccepted.
She was the one to leave an entire room breathless when she walks through the door.
She was the one to leave me wanting more. More than what I was settling for, more than what she claimed she wanted from this; from us.
She was quite the actress. One to manipulate without knowing she was doing so or maybe she did.
All I know is...
She kept telling me, telling me she liked me. She could have had me fooled.