The words I couldn't tell you

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I'm suffocating on the smoke you trail behind.
Yet you've seem to forgotten that I'm back there as well.
My long slender legs incapable in keeping the pace of yours.
So I fall behind.
The smoke wrapping my body as if it needed the comfort as much as I did.
Although it was nice,
I was choking.
My breath heavy from chasing after you.
But you're no match as you continue on your path.
My screams only echo in this abyss.
Your name caught in my throat like the tears in my eyes.
I needed the air you so kindly took.
Leaving your cold hands on my arm as if it would warm my soul.
It never warmed my soul.
They left fingerprints,
Proof that at one point we walked along one another,
Almost in harmony.
Almost.
The cold air from your absent warmth has grown on me.
My body now numb from the frosty air that swirls through my hair.
The day I fell behind is so far long that I can barely tell when it began.
It began after I knew,
After I knew that I wanted you.
Our distance growing longer and colder as the days pass on.
But I had stopped,
In hopes that you would notice,
Maybe it was just me being naive,
Maybe I was just being selfish to think you would notice me,
Maybe I had hoped you would turned around and saw me as me.
I was a foolish girl to hope
And I knew this because you kept on.
The distance grew longer until the speck of what remain to be the girl I once loved disappeared into the sunset.
And with that, I'd reach out for it grasping for the sunlight like it was all I had left of you.
Pools of light seeping through the cracks of my fingers like sand.
Desperately I tried to hold onto it.
Because once the light was gone, I knew you would no longer cease to exist much like the sunlight.
My heart beat slowly ceasing to exist as the light disappeared.
And with that, you.