Waiting for you is like waiting for something that will never happen
No it is waiting for something that will never happen.
I can't hold onto the what if's or the endless scenarios my love rotted brain thinks
Holding on is hurting worse than I could ever imagine,
Than you could ever imagine.
I feel as if I'm taking blows to the gut every time you mention his name
He's yours and you love him
Why can't I just get that through my head and not wish things were different?
Maybe it's because you egg this on.
You tell me "I love him but I like you"
You tell me "If we ever break up, you have a shot."
You keep it in my head that I could actually have a chance but no matter how poorly he treats you,
At the end of the day you're still his.
And I'm still my own.
I feel lonely and confused.
I don't know what to do.
I need to get over you.
Because waiting for you is killing me slowly.
Slowly but painfully.
I need to let go because this isn't how I want to live my life.
I need to let you go.
And you need to know.
You need to know why I'm doing this.
I'm doing this for both of our own goods.
You don't want to like me because you love him
And I don't want to like you because you have him.
We have a dilemma that only time can fix.
I'm not leaving you physically
I'm leaving you emotionally.
And I couldn't tell you which was worse but this has to be done.
I feel myself shutting down
My feelings for you linger on but I'm not letting that happen anymore.
Tonight's the night that my love for you must die.
~Alexis Celine 💚
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