Professor Sebastian Jones - Is It Love? Fan-fiction by SW

Chapter 30 - Sleeping in Sebastian's arms

I've slept only for three hours, and now I can't sleep anymore. I'm rolling from one side to the other of the bed, and this is driving me crazy. I'm getting overwhelmed by anxiety: I'm trembling, sweating, my breath is short. I have a knot in my stomach and heart palpitations. I'm panicking, and I'm not able to calm down myself. I'm having an anxiety attack as an adverse effect of the drug. And I've never had this before!

Nicolae is right. I'm not able to heal myself anymore. I'm getting weaker with my erratic life. It's time to be a good girl instead of this untamed hurricane.

I sneak from my room into the forest to a small druid meditation to try to calm my nerves down. I'm sitting under my tree, but I can't focus. I'm not able to concentrate and meditate. The anxiety attack is getting worst! I'm hyperventilating, I'm soaked in sweat, and I'm shaking like a pinscher. I bend my knees against my chest and hold it. I lay my head on my knees. I'm sitting in a fetal position, and I start sobbing in despair.

The huge black wolf shows up and, like the other day, he makes his way with his face to put his head on my shoulder and leans against me to comfort me. I hug him as he is a huge teddy wolf. I lay my head on his soft fur and caress him. His presence is so comforting, and I feel protected.

We stay like this for long minutes, until I start to regain some self-control. Sebastian's presence is like a balm! I let him go from my embrace and the huge black wolf shifts into Sebastian. I can see all his concern in his fierce amber eyes.

Sebastian: Are you okay, Khawla?

I nod faintly.

Sebastian: What happened?

My voice is a trembling murmur.

Khawla: Anxiety attack.

Sebastian nods because he knows how my week will be miserable due to the substance abuse and, because of this, he came tonight. He holds me tight in his strong arms and starts to sway to soothe me. Sebastian sways me till I fall asleep in the comfort of his warm embrace.

***

I wake up at dawn. I look around. I'm still in the forest. Sebastian's jacket is covering me, and I'm in his arms. He's still sleeping tranquility.

"Aw... Cute!"

Sebastian looks so serene and comfortable! Well, he's a wolf, of course, he's comfortable in being in the woods. I take some time to observe him. His arms are still around me in a protective way, his ribs cage moves up and down following his breath rhythm. It's so warm his body! How I wish I could wake up every morning in Sebastian's arms! I start to caress his well-shaped chest softly not to wake him up. But the contact of my fingers on his t-shirt makes him shiver, and he opens his fierce amber eyes. He smiles in seeing me awake.

Sebastian: Good morning, Sleeping Beauty...

I give him back my best smile.

Khawla: Good morning, wolf.

Sebastian: I didn't have the courage to wake you up to you go to your bed. You were sleeping so serene after your anxiety attack...

Sebastian sits making me sitting too. He's looking at me differently... He gets one lock of my hair and puts behind my ear. His gaze is intense on me, it has a different glow.

Sebastian: I have to go. I still have to prepare some material for my today's classes.

I nod, and I give him his jacket back, and he dresses it. Sebastian stands up and helps me to stand up too.