our place. (c.h)

chapter 5, im sorry.

hi guys!! i hope ur enjoying the story so far. i'm trying to write as many chapters as i can, but since i'm making them so long there'll be less chapters. i'm also not exactly sure how long this story will be, so i guess i'll end it where it seems right. happy reading! <3

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As I wake up, I instantly remember last nights events. Tears start immediately threatening to fall from my eyes, as the look on Calum's face starts replaying in my head. I felt absolutely terrible, I can't even imagine how he was feeling. I quickly wipe my tired but now wet eyes and check my phone laying on the bed side table. It's almost noon, which is weird because I usually don't sleep in that late. I drag myself out of bed and into the kitchen.

I pick up a banana and hear my phone ring. I grab it and look at the caller ID, it's my dad. I set down my banana and answer.

"Hey sweetie! How are you?" I hear my dad say into the phone.

"I'm good dad. Are you coming down today with my stuff?" I said, hoping he'd say yes. It's been less than a week and I already miss him.

"Yes. We'll actually be there shortly. We'll be bringing your car with us," I mentally thank god because I've missed driving myself. Driving was probably one of my favorite things to do, because I like to have my own little talent show where I scream the words to every song that comes on.

"Are you okay?" my dad suddenly says, pulling me out of my own thoughts. "You sound like you just woke up."

I sigh, thinking once again of last nights events and say, "Probably because I just did. Just let me know when you'll be here okay? I'm probably going to run out to the store or see if I can find a coffee shop nearby. I miss you and mom so much."

"I miss you too dear! See you soon!" I hear my mom say. I laugh and hang up.

I decided I wanted to find a coffee shop, because unfortunately I'm the one of many who's addicted to coffee. I was still pretty tired from being woken up at three in the morning, and I knew some caffeine would do the trick. I head into my bedroom and start to get ready. I didn't pack many clothes with me so I didn't have many options. I thank god once again for my parents coming today, because that means everything that I need with finally be in my apartment. I decided to go with a denim skirt and a plain white tee, wanting to keep it simple but cute at the same time. I quickly brush my hair and turn on my straighter before looking in the mirror. Holy shit, I looked awful. I apply some makeup while I wait for my straighter to heat up.

I put on my quick everyday look: some concealer where I thought I needed it, bronzer, eyebrow gel and some mascara.

At this point my straighter is heated up and ready so I brush my hair and start straightening my hair. It's naturally blond and quite long, hitting right in the middle of my back. I finish straightening it and turn off the hot tool. I slip on some white, low-top converse, grab my keys and make my way towards my door. I pause slightly before opening it, hoping I wouldn't see Calum. How would I explain for last night? How could I explain why I reacted the way I did? I wasn't scared of Calum, not one bit. He might look tough and a little intimidating out the outside, but he has a soft side and I know it. He was so kind I spoke to him, his tone gentle and smooth. I don't think I could ever find a way to explain that it wasn't him I was scared of.

I gain some courage, turn the handle and head out. I make my way to the elevator and the coast is clear of Calum, so I step in and press 5. The elevator door opens at the bottom floor and I head out to the street. I stand there for about 10 minutes trying to flag down a taxi and find a coffee shop not too far away. I find a little shop a few blocks from the diner, and it has good reviews so I decide that's where I'm going to go. I wave for a taxi for a few more minutes and one finally stops for me. I sigh with relief, get inside and close the door behind me. I tell the taxi driver where to go and I'm there within the next three minutes. I hand him a few bills and step out of the car.

The little coffee shop is in my eyes view so I start walking over to it. It looks simple, like the average, everyday coffee shop. I walk in and my eyes immediately see him. He looks up and sees me, stands up from his seat, and is now his way over to me. I'm frozen, nerves taken over me. He gets closer and I start to panic, so I turn around and just run. I run out of the coffee shop, probably earning looks from everyone around. I turn into an empty alley in hopes of finding somewhere I can get away to and feel a big hand grip around my wrist, stopping me from moving any further.

I turn to face him, I already know exactly who it is. I look at my feet and decide to speak up.

"I'm sorry Calum." I say softly, not even sure if he could hear me. I started picking at my nails, feeling guilty about what I had just done.

"Why did you run when you saw me?" he said a little sternly, breathing a little harder that usual, probably due to running after me.

I look up and I saw sadness. I saw tired eyes, I saw everything. I could read every emotion on his face, and not a single one of them was happiness.

I wanted to cry. I felt terrible. Why did I even run? I wasn't ready to explain, I didn't know what to do. I wanted to avoid the whole situation in general I guess.

"I'm sorry," I said looking anywhere but his eyes. "I panicked." I noticed my hands start to shake and my breaths become irregular. Tears started welling in my eyes.

"Jane? Hey, hey what's wrong?" Calum said, now sounding worried.

So I did the only thing I thought would make me feel better. I threw my arms around Calums neck and hugged him. Tight. He seems a bit taken my my sudden embrace, but quickly caught on wrapped his big arms around me. He heard me start to sniffle and hugged me even tighter. I let go and wiped underneath my eyes.

"Sorry." I said, feeling bad for crying on his shirt.

"You have got to stop apologizing Jane." Calum said with a laugh. "But can we talk for a little bit?"

I look up to his eyes and nod. We start walking back to the coffee shop and stay silent the whole walk there.

a few minutes later

Calum and I are back inside the coffee shop, sitting at the table he was at before I ran off. I sigh and look down at my hands.

"Do you want anything?" Calum said looking right at me.

"Uh, no I'm alright. Thank you though." I said, feeling sick at the thought of coffee.

He nods and readjusts in his seat. "So," Calum says, looking down at his coffee, not exactly knowing where to start. "I just wanted to apologize. I'm very sorry about last night. About all of it, about waking you up, scaring you, everything. I didn't realize I could come off that way. I never meant to intimidate you or scare you like that." he said, looking up from his drink and into my eyes.

"Calum you don't need to apologize. If anyone does, it's me." I said meeting his eyes for what seems to be the first time since I met him. I was drowning in his big brown eyes, trying to find some happiness in them. I didn't see any. "I didn't mean to flinch when you reached for me, and I don't want you to think I'm scared of you or intimidated by you. I wasn't your fault, it was all on me." I said, trying to smile at him. His eyes still had an emotion in them I couldn't really read.

"Then why'd you flinch?" he kind of whispered, not sure if his question was okay to ask.

"I-i, I have to go." I said, grabbing my keys and standing up.

"What? Jane, wait." he said, confused.

"I'm sorry." I whispered. I walked out of the coffee shop, leaving Calum to his own thoughts.

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hey guys. did u like the chapter? there was a lil twist, but i still wonder what u guys with happened to jane, if you even think anything happened to her. let me know in the comments! anyway, hope u have a great day and i'll try to update as much as possible. i'm writing whenever i can so i can publish at least once a day, but that might change. i have the next chapters written already so i'm ahead but i'm exited for u guys to read them. sorry for the long author messages, i'll go now. love u and have an amazing day!!