The exact words he threw at my face still haunts my dreams every single night and I think I'm starting to believe him.
"Wish I've never met you I was so young and stupid, no wonder no one wanted to be with you, you are just holding me down and I...
Months went by and let me say this we are extremely happy, I do love him with my whole heart and I never stop loving him, he has been wonderful with Mackenzie and the love that he gives us makes it feel that we haven't spent so many years apart.
I know it is hard to admit what you are feeling especial when you someone you love brock your heart and wants it back, I do keep my walls up as much as I can but Kayden keeps on breaking them bit by bit down and I am scared, scared to open back up, scared to give myself away once more.
Just because if I break down again I won't be able to build myself up again and that makes me scared, I know that he changed and that he means what he say but I am just to scared that he get bored and push me away.
I think I know what I want, no I defiantly know what I want, just a matter of time and I will tell him exactly.
Kayden surprised us with a family vacation to get away and spend time together and we are just checking in at Belize.
A perfect holiday for family bonding and what makes it the best is that it is a romantic getaway near the Caribbean Sea, Mackenzie is overjoyed to go on a vacation because well the beach is her favorite places and she is like a little mermaid loves the water I latterly have to beg her to take a break and come to the shade.
I just want to say that my family are complete and that we love each other to death but I want to make sure how I make my decisions and how I tell him what I want.
I looked over to Kayden and Mackenzie playing on the beach and sometimes I just rub my eyes just to make sure it is real that he is still here and everything is real, they made their way back to me under the shade and I quickly sat up.
"Hi Honey, you look awful hot I might say, don't you think mommy looks hot baby" he giggled
"Yes daddy, maybe she needs to cool off" Mackenzie evil laughed
"NO NO NO!!! Kayden I don't think so whatever you and that little evil one planed it's not going to work I will scream "I said and tried to run away.
Just like I thought he cached me easily and threw me over his shoulder and walked to the water as he whispered.
"You know I love the sound of you screaming "and I can actually feel his smirk as he walked.
He walked in the water knee deep and threw me in and the cold almost hit my breath away, the devils laughed so much at me and that's just it I am going to murder them both I did not plan to get my clothes wet because that's actually why you get swim wear!
I looked over at them and Kayden screamed to Mackenzie. "Run baby Run, mission abort!!! Repeat Mission abort!!"
They laughed and ran away as I chased them all over, after a while we got tired and I gave up to but not completely just for now I will get revenge!
We got together under the shade and I sat down co
Kayden joined me on the towel and sat right next to me while Mackenzie is building a little sand castle under the shade and drinking her juice, I faced him and placed my legs over his so that he can focus on me, I need him to for what I am about to say and I am not going to chicken out now! It's now or never.
He watches me and I know he can sense something is wrong, and this how it begins. "Kayden I need to confess to you, I owe you this much after everything you do for us "I said to him and studied his expression.
"Before you say anything I want you to listen until I finish "I said and he nodded while taking my hand and placing a kiss on it which makes me smile.
"the first time I saw you again, I was so afraid that you will take my baby away from me because she is a big girl now and I was just so angry at everything that happened I just didn't want to be near you because I was afraid to get to close and realize that you will never be mine, but just like everything does my situation changed, I got to know you all over again and I know that you changed, I realized what you value most and how kind you are to the people you love especially Mackenzie and I am extremely thankful that she can spend time with her dad, with everything that happened and how you saved me made me realize that I fell once again completely in love with you and I do forgive you for the past and I just hope you forgive me for not fighting harder trying to make you listen to me, I have never and will never love anyone as much as I love you Kayden and I know that now, I know that I want to make it work between us I want to give it my best not just for us but for Mackenzie too , she needs her dad to chase away mean boys and monsters under her bed. I will do everything I can to make this that we have work as long as you want me too. 'I said to him and he brushed the tear away on my cheeks.
"Thank you Muffin and of course I want to, I love you and that little angel that just across from us with my whole heart, this means the world to me and I think you know that, thank you for telling me how you feel Muffin I am speechless but I do promise you one thing and that is that I will make sure to never let you guys go! "He kissed me and that was how perfect my day turned out.
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