Mr. Smith

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Alissa's POV

We all sit down as he begins to tell us and the doctor.

"When Ronnie was 6 her father, mr.smith was a very let's just say depressed man. She never tells anyone this but basically worst came to worse. One day me and Ronnie were at the living room with her mom and brothers who are a bit older than us. Her mom called her to tell her dad dinner was ready. Ronnie all cheered up went upstairs and found her dad. I don't know what happened she never told me but next thing I know I hear screaming then a gunshot and next thing you know mr.Smith is gone." Jacob says

Everyone was shocked.

"And after that her mom never talked about him again not her brothers or anyone. She once came to school with the shirt that had his blood on it and kept repeating "he did it because of me, I could have stopped him, he stopped his life because I did it, I killed him and that's why there's blood on my shirt because I'm a murderer" she continues saying that over and over." Jacob explains.

"Oh my god" Tessa says as she hugs Jacob.

"Do you guys remember when she asked why Logan stopped smiling because of her. Do you think that might have had something to do with it" Sommer says.

"Yes that could have maybe triggered that, maybe because she thought Her dad ended his life because of her that Logan isn't happy around her. I think we know what to do doctor" I say.

I start calling Logan.

"Hey Logan it's Alissa" I say

Logan: "Hey is Ronnie okay?"
Ronnie: "Umm actually she's not and I think you might need to get down to the hospital"
Logan: "what do you mean?" He freaks out

We explain everything to Logan once he comes. Only thing we are waiting on is Ronnie waking up.

She finally woke up 2 hours later

We left her and Logan alone.

Ronnie's POV

I start opening my eyes to see Logan in front of me. My breathing hitched a little.

"Ronnie the reason why I didn't smile is because I'm heartbroken. I'm constantly beating myself over and over about how I let a sweet girl like you get away by breaking her. It shows that you deserve better, so much more. I am not good enough for you and I never was. When I heard you were in the hospital my heart stopped because I care about you it doesn't have to romantically, and when I heard about your dad.." he begins to say.

"My dad?" I question him.

"Yeah I'm so sorry but I just want you to know it's not your fault. You didn't cause this, you can fight whatever you're feeling. Something your dad couldn't do. If you don't do it for yourself do it for him, he's watching above Ronnie. You need to fight those emotions that make you hate yourself because.."

"Get out" I say looking the other way.

"What?" He asks

"I said get out! GET OUT GET OUT" I say as I start crying.

No one knows what happened that night. Not even my family. Me and my dad only do and will stay that way.

It wasn't his fault it was mine. I am responsible for my fathers death. That's something I have to live with everyday.

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Hey guys.

So this chapter was a little bit rough I know.

But something happened this week. It was suicide awareness day. When unfortunately we learned a girl who is in my school that I constantly see everyday has commited suicide.

Now I live in a small town, this never happens. Once we hear about someone ending their own life we question if their is something we could have done.

We could have done something or we couldn't. There's no possible way of reversing this.

How could we know what they were feeling, if you ever need to talk about anything talk to someone, someone trusting. Even though I am a stranger know my dm's are always open for anyone.

This is not to offend anyone.

We need to be here for our brothers and sisters. We need to make people believe their life matters.

We could do that by supporting each other, talking about it and help spread the word of love and care towards others.

Saying hi and smiling at someone can do so much, you don't understand.

My ex-bestfriend is suicidal always has been. It's hard, it's hard to keep giving them support when they keep resisting. We need to keep fighting for their life, because they can't fight for theirs.

Thank you so much for everything.

Until next time, X.

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