Clout Chase ~ Chasing the dream

You look happier

It's been about two months since I last spoke to Grayson. He unfollowed me on everything, fans have gone insane, our friends are confused except for Ethan since he knows what's going on.

I just thought he would need a week or two but not to cut me off his life completely.

Honestly the situation with Grayson makes me feel angry at myself and full of fear for the future.

Lately I haven't been doing anything, other than laying all day in bed, have been just uploading random vlogs inside the house, because I haven't gone out even though I'm supposed to.

Only time I would go out is to probably go to the balcony or swim in the pool.

Ethan has been over a lot, with Emma. No sign of Grayson, maybe he has, who knows I have been in my room editing or watching tv.

I gained a few pounds but they're not noticeable. So now I hired someone to keep me from eating junk, and help workout daily to keep my physical health and mental health good.

He's name is Ben. He is known for being an Instagram fitness model but he also trains.

"Ronnie" Alissa knocks.

"Come in" I say once I take my headphones out from editing yet another vlog.

I upload once a week but vlog the entire week.

Every clout gang member enters the room. Alissa, Banks, Rice, Sommer. Except Carrington but let's be honest when is Carrington ever home.

"You're gettting off your lazy ass, you're coming out with us. I don't know what's been going lately with you. But I miss you, and stop being so distant. You need to man up and be a fucking squid again" Banks says as he takes my covers off.

"Heyyy, I'm cold" I say

"We live in LA there's no such thing as I'm cold Ronnie. Get up" Bryan says.

"What's so important I'm editing"

"What's so important is your doctor is concerned and so are we. If you don't get up I'm going to have call your family. You need to fucking socialize and get over whatever your upset about"
Alissa says

"Geez mom"

"That's right. And you are going to fucking dress up and come party with us today. My birthday is this week and we are all going to Las Vegas. No buts" Sommer says

"But. I'm not over 21 I can't "party"" I say

"So Rice isn't either. you don't have to drink. Just come and enjoy the night. Emma, James and the twins are coming so that should be fun" she says

"Both the twins" I ask

"Yeah" they all look at each other weirded out.

"Plus we finally get to meet Grayson's girlfriend" Bryan says as I'm fettting up and putting my laptop down.

I suddenly freeze and continue doing what I'm doing to act as if everything is normal

"Really that's awesome" I lied

"So where are we going today?"

"Where do you think?" Banks says

"Rodeo" Of course Banks wants to go to Rodeo

"I have rent to pay" I lied. I don't even pay rent Banks won't fucking let me or any of the others except Rice since they want to be "gentlemen"

"You don't even fucking pay rent" Bryan says

"Ughhhh Fine. I'm sweatpantsing" I say.

"At least she out here creating new words" Bryan says to me saying the word "sweatpantsing