Soulmates

.13.

.Chloe.

It was never my intention to hurt Beca last night, but I have to. The whole week I have to vomit every morning and I know what that means. I haven't done a pregnancy test yet, but I need to do it. Tom needs to know too because if I am, he's going to be a father. I thought about the future the whole week and I honestly saw myself growing old with Beca and not with Tom. I love her as much as I love Tom and I needed to make a choice. Last week when I told Beca that I wanted her, I meant it. I really wanted to try it with her and we hit it off immediately in that hot tub, but now with these new developments – I just can't choose her fully. I totally understand her reaction tho, because she wants some clarity. She was honest about loving me, cause I can feel it. I really feel the attraction between us and if I wasn't feeling this way, I would have chosen her. But first, I need to know if I'm pregnant or not. If not, maybe Beca will give me another chance? Right now, I'm only trying to convince myself that Beca will give me another chance. I sigh and fall on my bed when Aubrey walks in.

,,What's wrong?" She looks at me.

,,I'm so confused." I can't lie to her. She's my best friend too and just like I tell Beca everything, it's the same with Aubrey. ,, Remember that I didn't feel good lately?" I sit up again and look at her, while she sits next to me.

,,I've noticed. The day before yesterday when we were celebrating our good grades with Stacie and Amy you didn't even drink your wine."

,,I have a reason."

,,Are you pregnant?" I shrug my shoulders.

,,I don't really know yet, but I have three pregnancy tests, so I'm about to find out in a couple of minutes."

,,Does Beca know?"

,,No. Look, I don't even know if I'm pregnant, so why tell her and make her upset?"

,,Do you want me to stay with you when you're taking those tests?"

,,You don't have to. I'll be fine and if I know I'll let you know okay?" Aubrey nods and I walk to the bathroom with the pregnancy tests, when I hear a knock on our door. I hear Aubrey answers the door and hears the voices of Amy and Emily.

,,Aubrey, is Chloe here?" I hear Amy ask, while I finish what I'm doing.

,,Yeah she is, but she's in the bathroom right now."

,,We'll wait." The door close again and I know Amy and Emily are in my room now. I flush the toilet so that they think I've been using the toilet instead of taking this pregnancy test. I put the three tests under the mirror, next to my toothbrush and quickly walk out of the bathroom. They can't know about this. If they know, they'll tell Beca and she can't know about this.

,,Hi guys." I say when my eyes meet Emily's.

,,Chloe, have you seen Beca?"

,,Yes, she was here last night."

,,And you haven't seen her after that?"

,,No why? What's wrong?"

,,Well, she wasn't in our dorm room when I woke up." Explains Amy. ,,I thought she was with you, but apparently not."

,,What do you mean, she isn't in your dorm room?"

,,Exactly as I say it. Beca isn't in our dorm room, so the question is do you know where she is."

,,Beca's missing?"

,,Well duh," Emily looks at me. ,,damn girl, what's up with you?"

,,Don't mind her," Aubrey looks at me with a soft expression and back to the two girls. ,,did you text her already?"