Soulmates

.26.

,,You're lucky Tom does not file a report against you." Aubrey says when we sit outside, in the schoolyard. Bella did call an ambulance last night, so Tom could be taken care of, while I walked back to my dorm. The gun is in my desk drawer again, but I need to get rid of it, just in case the police starts an investigating.

,,He's an asshole and he deserved what I did to him!"

,,Beca, you can get arrested." Emily looks at me with a worried look.

,,Maybe, but on what evidence? They can't find the gun or fingerprints and Tom won't put any charge against me."

,,Are you sure about that?"

,,Yes, because he was at my dorm this morning."

,,What?! What was he saying?"

,,That he wouldn't take charges against me and that he was sorry for everything. He promised me that he won't go nearby Chloe again."

,,And you believe him?" Amy and Stacie look at me with raised eyebrows.

,,Of course not. I've called Jesse after Tom left and asked him to keep an eye on Tom when I'm in LA for the next four years."

,,I really going to miss you Beca." I look at Emily and see some tears in her eyes.

,,Hey, come here," I say while opening my arms. Grateful she pulls her arms around my waist and hold me closer. ,,we both have a phone with Whatsapp and Skype, so we have contact every night."

,,Really?"

,,Of course. You guys are my family if you like it or not and I'll always be a part of the bellas. I'll be glad to help you with mashups once a week if you want." I look more to Aubrey now, then the other bellas. She's the captain, so yeah.

,,That would be great." She says and looks at her phone. ,,It's visiting hour at the hospital, are you coming with us to Chloe?"

,,I want to, but I can't." I'm expecting a sermon, but Aubrey nods understanding.

,,You really understand?" Asks Flo surprised.

,,Yeah, Beca's in love with Chloe and nobody wants to see the people you love lying like this. It's understandable that Beca doesn't want to see Chloe injured."

,,Wow Bree, you're changing! Are you okay?" Amy put her hand against her forehead as a joke and the other bellas starts laughing.

,,I'm going with you." All the bellas follow Aubrey.

,,Wait, can you stay with me Emily?" I ask quickly before she is gone with the rest of the bellas.

,,Sure?" She says more questioning than happy. ,,What's up?" she asks when the other bellas are out of sight.

,,I was just wondering if you want to come with me."

,,Do you want to go to Chloe?"

,,No, I mean come with me to LA."

,,What?! Why do you want me to come with you?"

,,I thought maybe you want to work with me, but if you don't want to it's okay."

,,It's not that I don't want to, but I can't leave the bellas right now. Can I think about it?"

,,Of course, you should be sure when you decide to come with me. I don't want to force you." Emily smiles and sits next to me.

,,Thank you for thinking about me."

,,You're my sister and I love you. I couldn't think of anyone else to ask to work with me and-" I want to finish my sentence when my phone starts ringing. I grab my phone.

Beca Mitchell.

Beca, there's something with Chloe. Can you come to the hospital?

Oh, my god! Is there something wrong, Amy?

I have no idea, but you should hurry!

Amy ends the call and I stand up immediately.

,,Beca, what's wrong?"

,,I don't know, something is happening with Chloe and Amy didn't sound happy about it, so she isn't waking up!"

,,Well, what are we waiting for?" Emily grabs my hand and pulls me with her to the hospital. 

Emily and I run to the room where Chloe lies and when we arrive, the door is closed and the other bellas are standing in the hallway. I see Aubrey crying, just as Stacie and Flo.

,,What happened?" I ask Amy because she can talk even tho she has tears in her eyes as well.

,,She's having another seizure."

,,What?!" I fall on my knees to the floor. I put my hands in front of my face and starts to cry my eyes out. Why is this happening? Why does Chloe deserve to die? What if she dies? I haven't even told her that I'm in love with her? I haven't told her that I'm moving to Los Angeles! I haven't asked her to move in with me. How am I suppose to live my life without her? I feel a panic attack coming and normally I would try to stop the attack, but not now. I let it come to me, while I sit against the wall with my back. It's my fault! If I hadn't a fight with her, she wouldn't have been in that car! I should've killed Tom because it's also his fault!  I haven't noticed the way my nails goes into my skin until I feel a hand on my shoulder.

,,Beca?" It's Amy. ,,Beca, stop this." She tries to grab my hand, whose nails are in my skin. ,,You're bleeding, please stop." But she isn't stopping me and my breathing becomes worse. ,,Does somebody knows how to stop this?" I hear her asking the other bellas.

,,Chloe was the only one who could stop such an attack." Aubrey says, but I don't want to hear or see anything. I want Chloe to be here and help me! I want to hurt myself, just as I hurt Chloe. I know I'm bleeding and that the blood is on my hand right now, but I don't want to stop.

,,Beca!" Now Emily, Amy and Aubrey are in front of me. One of the three grab my hand and carefully get the nails out of my skin. ,,This isn't your fault, do you hear me?!"

,,This isn't helping. What would Chloe have done?"

,,Chloe isn't here, let me try." I feel a finger under my chin and see Emily's eyes. There soft and friendly, just like Chloe, but then a little different. Emily isn't Chloe, but she's getting just as close. ,,Beca?" She's careful and says things with a soft voice, which calms me down. ,,I know you care about Chloe, but you should believe that she will wake up. She will wake up and recognize us all, she will love you as much as you love her and she will be a great mother." I hear my breathing starts to get slower.

,,If I hadn't had a fight with her..."

,,You didn't hit the car, so this isn't your fault. Yeah, it's too bad that you guys had a fight, but that will be okay. You two are going to be okay." I smile a little to her and hear that I'm breathing normally again. Emily knew how to get to me, just like Chloe. I need to be sure to get one of them close to me in LA. The door of the room where Chloe lies opens and two doctors get out of the room. 

,,Are you here for miss Beale?" he asks us, but I can't talk, so Aubrey says 'yes'. ,,She's okay now, we had to resuscitate her with a defibrillator."

,,And her baby?"

,,We kept the baby alive by some tube feeding, but we want to investigate the baby when miss Beale wakes up."

,,Is she going to wake up?" I ask and look to the doctor.

,,It's difficult to say. We are giving her one week, but if she isn't awake next week, you should think about taking out the plug out." I swallow and while the other Bellas thank the doctors, I stand up and walk into the room. I look at Chloe lifeless body while walking to the bed and grabbing her hand.

,,Hi Chlo, we've talked to the doctor who just did a CPR on you and he told us that they're giving you one more week to wake up. Can you please do that for me? I really miss you and your baby needs you. You can't die on me now, I love you!" And I can't talk further, because I start crying. Please Chlo wake up, I can't live my life without you by my side! I love you!