Soulmates

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Amy and Stacie have been here for me this whole week and now it's time to go to Chloe. We're already at the hospital and are standing in front of the room where Chloe lies. I'm afraid of what I will see because anything can happen. Oh, my god what if she dies when I'm sitting next to her?!
,,Come on Beca, Chloe wants to see you when she wakes up. Only you can make her smile." Amy looks at me and walks inside the room. My heart breaks when I see Chloe, so I stop walking and just stand at a safe distance.
,,Hey Chlo," starts Aubrey. ,,we have Beca with us today. She really misses you, just like we all do. Today is your last chance to wake up, so please don't let us down." My eyes fill themselves with tears. Chloe's doctors were very clear when he said that it is Chloe's decision to wake up, but I just could only laugh at that comment. It's impossible in the state of where Chloe lies in now, that she will wake up. I have to prepare myself to lose her, that Chloe will lose her child, that I can never see her beautiful face again. The doctors can't help her anymore and I know that I'll fall apart without her. I'm full of hatred to the man that has ruined Chloe's life. Tom better keep his distance towards Chloe or he's dead.

I've been dreaming about Chloe a lot the last couple of weeks. All about the future that I've been imagining myself with. Of course in my dreams, Chloe is my girlfriend and sometimes even my wife, but I know that can only be possible in my dreams. Every time I see her in my dreams, I take her to a diner where the staff would sing to us and after that I take her to the park and just walk hand in hand with her, while the park is filled with the most beautiful roses. Yeah roses, because Chloe loves roses. And to finish the date, I take her to play mini golf. That date would be childish, romantic and filled with music, but I always wake up at the time Chloe would kiss me. In my dreams, I can see her blue eyes, but in reality, those eyes are missing. She doesn't laugh, she doesn't talk and I really miss her laugh. Carefully I walk over to the bed and sit down in the chair next to Chloe. I notice that the other bellas leave the room and leaving me alone. I know that they're staying outside the room and I know they can still see me through the window but I don't care.
,,Hey Chlo," I start and play with my hands. ,,I know I haven't been here a lot, but I just couldn't. I want you to know how much this is affecting my life. Chloe, since you're in this coma I can't eat, sleep or concentrate. I haven't made a single mix or mash up and most days I just lie in bed watching Netflix. I've been writing a lot of songs and I'm hoping I can sing them for you, but to do that you need to wake up. I can't live without you. Don't you get it? I know you chose Tom over me, but I still love you. I love you so much and I can't even say it to your face." I laugh sarcastically. ,,You can't even hear anything I'm saying right now. I am so jealous when I see you with Tom. You know he does all the things that I can do too, but you don't see how much I want you and care about you. When you told me that you chose Tom, my heart just broke into a million pieces, but I never wanted you to end up like this." I close my eyes and force my tears back. ,,I'm going to sing one of the songs I've written for you and maybe this song will be the last thing you ever hear." I grab my phone where the music is of my song and start playing it. This isn't recorded with my voice yet, but that doesn't mind, because I know all the words.

You know I 'd fall apart without you

I don't know how you do what you do

'Cause everything that don't make sense about me

Makes sense when I'm with you

Like everything that's green, girl, I need you

But it's more than one and one makes two

Put aside the math and the logic of it

You gotta know you're wanted too