Soulmates

.17.

I just finished another song I've written for Chloe. After my daily shower, I'm going to the hospital. I should be at school, but I can't. I don't want to go to the hospital, but Bella convinced me. She told me that Chloe wanted to see me. I don't believe in wonders, but I really hope Chloe will wake up. My feelings for Chloe have not gotten less and I'm scared. Maybe she won't wake up and then I will lose my best friend forever. I was mad and sad when I heard about the pregnancy, but I have to deal with it. If Chloe is happy with being a family with Tom, so be it. I can't lose her, she's my best friend and she always will be. I know I'm alone in here, so I start my song and sing.

Escaping nights without you with shadows on the wall

My mind is running wild trying hard not to fall

You tell me that you love me but say I'm just a friend

My heart is broken up into pieces

'Cause I know I'll never free my soul

It's trapped in between true love and being alone

When my eyes are closed the greatest story told

I woke up and my dreams are shattered here on the floor

Why oh why tell me why not me

Why oh why we were meant to be

Baby I know I could be all you need

Why oh why oh why

I wanna love you

If you only knew how much I love you

So why not me

,,Wow Beca, that's deep." I startle by hearing Stacie's voice and turn around. Stacie and Amy are standing behind me with tears in their eyes.

,,You wrote that for Chloe right?" Amy looks at me with a worried look.

,,Yeah." I sigh and don't know what else to say.

,,You should sing that to her when you're in the hospital."

,,Why would I? It's not like she can hear me."

,,Have you heard from Hollywood Records yet?"

,,Unfortunately not."

,,You do not really want to leave, right?"

,,I want to leave so badly Stacie, but I can't go without that spot at Hollywood Records."

,,But Beca, Chloe loves you."

,,Loving someone is different than being in love with somebody."

,,What do you mean?" It's obvious that Stacie and Amy don't know the difference between 'love' and 'in love'.

,,Well, if you love somebody you need that person in your life and you want them to be happy, but you don't want a part of that person. When I think about Chloe, my heart jumps from happiness and I want to spend more time with her, to get to know her better and to be a part of her life. She's wonderful and I really want her to be a part of my life. I want to be with her as much as possible."

,,If that's true, you shouldn't walk away."

,,I'm not walking away from her, I'm being the strongest one of the two of us. Guys, Chloe's pregnant from Tom. I love Chloe more than I love myself, but I can't and I won't separate a family."

,,You're really noble, but Chloe won't be happy with Tom."

,,Look, I know you two are trying to make me feel better, but it's not working. I know Chloe and I had our moments, but she's in love with Tom."

,,Beca -"

,,No, I don't want to hear this anymore. I'm going to the hospital and hope that my best friend will wake up." And before they can react, I'm walking out of my dorm. 

When I arrive at the room Chloe lies, my eyes fill itself with tears. I walk over to the bed and grab her hand.

,,Hey, so I have something to tell you. I know you can't hear me, but I want you to know what's going on inside my mind. I've written a letter to Hollywood Records. They have an open spot and I really believe that it's a big opportunity for me to be a famous DJ or music producer. I'm not sure about going, but staying here and knowing I can't help you – well, that kills me. You know how much you mean to me, but now I know about your child..." The tears are going over my cheeks. ,,I'm so sorry!" I start. ,,I'm so in love with you, but I can't ask you to be with me when you wake up, because you need to stay with Tom. Your child needs its dad. Don't worry, you'll always be my best friend and I'll always love you, but I can't tear your family apart." I start crying harder and look at her pale face. How is it possible that she still looks beautiful?! She's lying into a coma and she still looks gorgeous! ,,I know I will miss you like crazy, but I don't have another choice. If I stay here and watch you being one happy family with Tom – I can't do that!" I get up from the chair and walk to the large window. ,,But I can do research about your accident. Everybody saw it wasn't an accident, somebody hit Aubrey's car on purpose and I'm going to find out who." I turn around and look to Chloe. ,,And if I know who did it, I'll make them pay!" But where do I start? I need to explore the location. I need a bulletin board and evidence. I look to the heart monitor and I'm really happy that there's no change. Well, nothing changed in a bad way. I would be happier if Chloe woke up. What would Chloe say now? Would she stop me from doing research or would she want me to find out the person who did this and made them pay?  I sit down on the chair again and grab Chloe hand. ,,I promise I'll find the person who did this to you!" I give Chloe a kiss on her hand and walk out of the room. Don't worry Chlo, I will avenge you and the person who hit the car is going to pay!