Twisted Memories [Under Revision]

Chapter VII

Refugee

 

My memories from the past were starting to get clearer and the more I remember, the more I feel hollow. I dreamed of my mom and dad yelling at each other, he slapped her hard on the face and she began hitting him. Mom was crying. Meanwhile, I was hiding in the closet, crying my heart out. I kept telling them to stop but they wouldn't budge.

I have been avoiding my mother these past few weeks. I did not want to talk to her. I had no idea if that thing was real, or was it just a manipulation of my memory?

I woke up and I feel a bead of sweat cascading on my face, my heart is palpitating. Anxiety surges through me. I feel hurt remembering those flashbacks. Why does it have to come back now? I was better off without those dire memories.

"Dear, what do you want for break––" before she can continue her sentence, I grabbed a sandwich and added some mayonnaise spread with it. I hurriedly sling my bag across my shoulder "Bye mom, I'll see you later, I have to go!"

I left in a rush. I didn't want to see her.

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When I arrived at school, the clique was at their usual place. Chilling and coolly dilly-dallying. Roland was playing the guitar, while Belle looked at him lovingly, smiling. Ford was watching some videos on his phone. Rowena had a headphones on and I assume that she was listening to music. I didn’t see Sky.

I scan around the crowd to search for him and I had no luck of finding him.

I approached Ford and asked, "Have you seen Jeremy?"

He shook his head and shrugged. It feels strange, usually he would greet me and tell me jokes then I would laugh hysterically. He lightens up my mood. I need his liveliness right now but it seems like there's no sign of him.

It feels like his presence is essential in my daily living. It will probably be hard for me to part from him.

The fence I've put up was broken when he came. It makes me happy and scared at the same time. Attachment is like a drug, you can never get enough of it, once you get attached you can never stop and even if you try to stop, it will not be easy.

Sky is a nice guy and I trust that he won't betray me. Recently, every time I look at him, I felt safety and despite knowing him for a short time, it feels like I've known him for so long. The feeling is so strange.

During lunch, it felt strange how the clique wasn't at their usual table. The entire morning, Jeremy didn't even speak to me. Every time I glance at his direction, he'd look away and avoid me. It's a weird day today since it felt like everyone is avoiding me. I approached Rowena, Belle, Ford and Jeremy for the nth time yet they'll just shrug and tell me that they're busy with something.

I was snapped out of my reverie when I heard a heavy breathing and a heavy footstep. I turned around to see who it belonged to, Sky.

"HEY!" I yelled, I couldn't hide my exasperation anymore, my tone was evidently irritated.

"F-faith..." he stopped and looked at me.

I sauntered towards his direction "Why the hell are you avoiding me? What the heck did I fucking do? What's going on with everyone? I have no idea what you're all up to!" I snapped.

"F-faith. E-everything's, fine, you don't have to worry about anything." he cajoled, nudging my shoulder. His tonality was convincing yet it felt like he was hiding something from me, the feeling was harmless but still, it left me in daze. I didn't notice that he ran away again.