"Well, you better get packing Brooke, were leaving soon." Michael says as he stands up from my bed and leaves the room. Wow, I can't beleive Im going on tour with my brothers band! I always watched them on Keeks and Youtube, but now I actually get to hangout with them. Personally, Im a Luke girl. How can I not be? He is perfection.
I finally finished packing, looked in the mirror, and suddenly realized how terrible I look. I have no makeup on, I have long blonde hair with red tips that I pulled into a messy bun, with a Nirvana shirt and black skinny jeans. I quickly apply foundation and powder all over my face and line my eyelids with eyeliner and put on some mascara. "Brooke, the bus is leaving!!" Michael yelled from downstairs. "Okay, just a second!" I looked in the mirror one last time and sighed. This will have to do.
I lugged my heavy suitcase down the stairs to see my mom and Michael waiting for me. He quickly took my suitcase to the bus for me while I said goodbye to my mom. "Im going to miss you so much Brooke Lynn." She said, almost crying. "I'm gonna miss you too mom." I gave her one last hug, and started to head to the door. Before I could leave she said "Brooke, are you positive that you have all your pills?" "Yes mom, theyre in my makeup bag. Thanks!" And I shut the front door.
I did have a lot of pills. My therapist and doctor think that pills can solve everything in life. But they cant.
I finally got on the tour bus and Michael approaches me. "Hey Brooke, Im really glad your coming with us." Calum comes up to us "Yeah, its gonna be so much fun! Come on, Ill show you ypur bunk!" I follow him over to everyone's bunks. "This one is my bunk." He says proudly. I look inside the curtain and its just a blanket, pillow, and a phone charger. "This one is Ashtons," as he points to a bunk with nicely folded blankets. "Here is Michaels, he requested the one next to yours." Michaels had a pizza box and a laptop in it. Typical Michael. "And this ones mine!" Luke yells. He points to a bunk with dirty clothes all over it and food everywhere. "Mines the best."
"Yeah, ok Luke. Well and lastly this one is yours." Calum says nicely. I look inside and its just a blanket, pillow, and my suitcase that Michael carelessly through in. "Its only 9:00 though, so where going to watch a movie!" Luke says to me. "Okay, sounds good!" And we all head to the back of the bus where the tv is. "How about the conjuring?" Ashton asks, already putting it in. Everyone agrees, and I sit between Luke and my brother Michael. "Are you sure you can handle it?" Luke asks, playfully teasing me with a sly smile. "Psh! Of coarse I can!" I say, trying to sound brave.
"Yeah, I dont know if its a good idea for you Brooke.." Michael pitches in, completely serious. "Michael, I love scary movies!" And just then, the movie starts. The truth was, I was actually terrified of scary movies. But there was no way I was going to tell them that.
It was about halfway through the movie, and Luke and I were close enough I could hear him breathing. At scary parts, we would unconsciously grab eachother then awkwardly apologize and blush. Multiple times throughout the movie, I found myself staring at his perfect face. His blonde hair was perfectly messy and his bright blue eyes were watching the screen. What really got me though, was his perfect teeth, and lip ring.
The movie finally ended we all hopped into bed. I pull out my phone and check the time. 1:00 am. I should get to bed soon, its getting late, and who knows what were gonna do tomorrow. I lock my phone and lay down on my pillow, and think about how amazing it is, that Im going on tour with 5 Seconds of Summer.
Im finding it hard to fall asleep, due to overthinking. I start worrying about every little thing that could go wrong and start to panic. My head is spinning and once I decide that everyone is asleep, I get up for some water, hoping it will help. Slowly and as quiet as possible, I jump down from my bunk and go in the kitchen. Only to find a half naked Luke looking in the fridge. "Oh! um, Im so sorry." I say awkwardly as I start to walk back to my bunk. "No, no its okay. I was just looking for a snack." He says, stopping me. I turn around. "Okay," and I sit down at the table. "What are you doing up?" He asks me. "Oh.. I just couldn't sleep."
He sits down at the table, across from me. Still shirtless, only in underwear. I try not to stare. "So, why couldn't you sleep? Did I wake you up?" He asks, concerned. "No, I didnt know you were awake. I was just overthinking things and couldn't get to sleep. Its a normal thing for me." I explain. "Oh, well is there anything I can do?" he asks. "No, I actually have pills for it. I think Ill take them now." I get up and walk over to my bunk while Luke sweetly pours me some water. He walks up to my while I look through my bag, "So, why do you have to take pills anyway?"
"I take a lot of pills, daily." I half explain. "For what??" he asks worried. "Oh, well for depression, sleeping, anxiety and panic attacks." I say, as if its nothing. He looks at me surprised, and speechless. "y- you have depression?" I look away from him. "Its not as bad since I got these pills but, yeah. I do." "And anxiety and panic attacks? How bad is that?" I look him in the eyes, "Really bad." He looks down and appears that he's thinking really hard.
I continue to look for my pills when I think back to when I was packing. I was going to pack them last, but I guess I never did. "Fuck." I say almost too loudly.
